nothing is impossible, if you just believe..

September 13, 2009

 

 

CONFUSED

September 12, 2009

 

there are lot of things going on in my mind right now. lot’s of questions, lot’s of unsure answers. lot’s of random thoughts.

(btw, is “LOT’S” wrong in grammar? so unsure. ahe)

WHY ARE WE LIVING? WHY ARE WE CREATED?  why do we need to live just to get hurt? to suffer? to SUCK at everything??

WHY IS LIFE FREAKING IRONIC??

laughter becomes tears. happiness turns to sadness. love turns to hate. white becomes black. sweet becomes bitter. truths turns to lies. up becomes down. living turns to dying.

FREAK!!! FREAK! stop the drama lol

echos lang!!! mag eemo sana ako. kaso wag na. di ko bagay. im such a jolly person, like yeah, so jolly. jollibee haha. Ü 

napapa emo lang naman ako kase ME AND HIM are LQ again. he’s so unresonable.

he gets mad, without even asking me the truth! he’s like yeah duh. watevs. dont want to talk about it anymore! nakakawrinkles siya. nakaka wrinkles lahat ng lalake sa mundo. they’re so dumb and immature. EXCLUDING MY DAD, but you can include my silly brothers. they’re jerks grr.

 ok. enough of the silly dramas. i’ll just tell how’s my day. even though its just freaky boring. i’ll still tell because this is my blog! haha. its our nstp today because its SATURDAY. (my favorite day BC (before college) because when in highschool, there’s no class every weekends. but its diff. now )

 so there,reporting namin today. 2nd to the last yung group namin, nung kami na, may props pa kaming baloons, nasa loob yung keywords. kaya dapat i darts ng representative bawat group. so ayun, naging ok naman yung reporting, medyo awkward nga lang ng onte for me kase di talaga ako marunong mag report hehe. tapos kase anjan si J. tsaka si GM na din. 

PS: classmate ko si J. crush ko siya before, PHYSICALLY lang. kase sama ng ugali niya. napakahangin, mahangin pa sa tsunami. kaya TO agad. kaso nga lang, everytime i look at him, he’s very CUTE. he has an angel face with a devil personality. rawr XD

PPS. i already wrote before na di ko na crush si GM, kaso ewan ko nga ba, bat tingin siya ng tingin saken. so kainis. gusto ko tuloy magkanta ng “muling ibalik ang tamis ng pag ibig”.. hehe. joke XD

after ng reporting, exam na ng midterm. di ako syado nakapagreview kase tinamad talaga ako, kaya dinaan ko nalang sa essay. hinabaan ko ng bonggang bongga para atleast, yun man lang ma perfect ko haha. Ü after mag exam pwede na umuwi, pero dahil gagawin pa namin nina ja at tep yung IP namen sa chemistry, nagshopping muna kame ng mirienda sa mall. tapos pumunta kami samen, kasama si ate rosas. kahit di namin siya ka group, syempre dapat sa chromosomes, lang iwanan! kaya ayun sumama siya. ung IP namin is making milk soap. tinulungan kami ng mama ko, so sana maging ok na, kase yung first try namin last wee, palpak ehh.

nung tapos na namin gawin, nag soundtrip muna kame, nagpapatugtog ako ng mga SENTI SONGS dedicated to tep. torn between two lovers kase ang drama niya now. ganito kase yun, si FIRST GUY AND SECOND GUY at SIYA. si first guy, matagal na siyang crush ni tep, first day of school pa.. kaso before,may iba pang gusto si first guy, kaya hanggang friends lang sila ni tep, so ayun, bigla dumating si second guy.. umamin kay tep, nanligaw, naging sila.. SILA NGAYON. tapos bigla eeksena nanaman tong si first guy, para guluhin si tep at amining may gusto ito sakanya.. si tep naman, sabi samen, naguguluhan daw siya kase mas masaya at mas gusto niya si first guy. its so kaloka. kawawa naman itong friendship ko, pero advice ko naman sakanya “follow your heart, whoever you chose, whatever you decide, di pwedeng walang masaktan.. kaya kung makakasakit at masasaktan ka na lang din, piliin mo na yung gusto talaga ng puso mo, yung ika nga e worth the pain” .. sounds cheesy, BUT TRUE. right?

 

haba na ata ng post ko?? feeling ko.. haba na. kaya tama na. haha. SWEETNIGHT CHUMS!

 

 

avoiding something doesnt always mean that you hate it.. it could also mean that you WANT IT, but you just know that it isnt right ..

 

 – this is for TEP. haha. i break mo na kase! haha. joke XD

when you ignore someone, it could only mean TWO THINGS, either you hate that person so much or you are too scared to fall in love with that person..

 

 – eto naman para saken BEFORE. nung crushy crush ko pa si GM. nung crush ko pa kase siya, lagi ko din siyang nahuhuling nakatingin saken, yung pag titingnan ko na siya, nakatingin na siya! eee. i remember those stares. i used to have butterflies in my stomach everytime that happens. pero, at that time, parang iniiwasan niya din ako.. so para sakanya talaga tong quote na to. i used to ask myself.. “does he HATE ME that much??? kaya niya ako iniiwasan?”.. and if its the SECOND REASON.. will it make a difference?? guess not.

pero sabi nga nila, past is soooo past. so wala na yun. and besides, may gf pala yun. more than a year na ata sila. PERO, last question, why is he still staring????? arghh.

LIFE IS FULL OF COMPLICATIONS. misunderstandings. and pain.

 

— i really need to end this post now, because my kitty cat is sleeping on my other arm. so i cant type fast. oh and yeah, my cat’s name is KIMI. he doesnt have a breed. puscal ika nga haha. napulot lang kse nung kuya ko, naawa kaya inuwi niya. ahe. but he’s very kawaii. he’s all white. with a little black on his head. so cuteeeee XD

 

 

okidoki, gtg KISS!

chromosomes :D

September 11, 2009

   

 

 

 C H R O M O S O M E S ! ! !

 

 

helo helo. i decided to upload photos tonight because i want to introduce my bffs in college.

FIRST PICTURE - from right, JUSTIN.. the malanding pokpok lol. i met him last year. we were 4th year hs classmates. 

and now, were mates again, so we became more close. our chatnick is PANGGA. ove him, een though he’s very insensitive and madaldal! haha.

middle, TEP. we met when we were in 2nd year hs. she’s so far my longest friend that until now, is close with me. she’s my very best friend actually. kabisado ko na siya. at kabisado niya din ako. magkapareho na kami ng utak eh. that’s why we click together. she’s like a sister i never had. love her soooo mush. 

she calls me MOM, i call her DAUGHTER. we’re family.

left.. nothing to say. thats just ME .. Ü

SECOND PICTURE - nadagdag lang si ATE ROSAS, yung from left, ung ikalawa na katabi ko Ü . schoolmates kame nung highschool, pero di kami magkakilala, by face lang. but now, were mates in college, so we became close. super

i call her ate because she’s very mature when it comes to serious life matters, but she can be very shallow and childish on lots of things.. that’s why i lover her a lot too. our chatnick is LOVE. 

 

I LOVE THEM ALL A LOT Ü

 

the THIRD PICTURE - thats our tambayan. yung likod ng building namen. yung parang secret place siya kase dadaan kapa kay kuya ray na nagpophotocopy bago makapunta dun.  its very cute there. yung upuan e parang dragon. basta cute. promise

 

LAST PICTURE -SHHHHH! sa men’s room yan hehe. engineering kase course namen, so mostly boys ang students. kaya nga pati building namen, puno ng men’s room. konti lang ang sa girls.e yung sa malapit sa room namen is men’s room, kaya dun nalang kame palaging nakiki salamin. kaya nga ayun nag picture kame for remembrance

nung isang araw nga, tuloy tuloy kami ni tep sa pagpasok sa men’s room, di namin alam may tao pala na nag wiwiwi. kaya ayun, nagulat talaga kame, tapos tawa kami ng tawa. sabi naman ni justin, di naman daw galit ung lalake, natawa pa daw siya kase na shock kami ng bonggang bongga.

 

 

 

 

 

 

o siya. oras na pala. di pa ko nakareview sa NSTP midterm namin tomorrow. 

tinatamad kase ako ehh. tapos di ko pa din nagawa yung reaction paper ko.. 

at tsaka di pa pala ako nakapag report sa phil history kanina! sayang. di pako nakaraos.

may kinatatakutan pa tuloy ako sa tuesday! grrrr. 

 

 

 

 

o siyaa.. NIGHT NA NGA! sweetsleep

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

am sick and tired of being sick and tired

 

 

GAGA

September 10, 2009

 

grrr. never thought na hanggang college may reporting. kala ko date iiwan ko na yun sa highschool. >,<

puyat mode tuloy ako tonight because i am going to report tomorrow in our phil. history subject. (sucker!)

ginagawa ko ang written report ko and visuals for my report. kapagod. di nako sanay gumawa ng ka echusan na ganto. hehe.

tska mahiyain akong tao eh, di ako sanay talaga sa reporting. tskk tskk.

 

bahala na nga si spongebob bukas

 

THURSDAY pala today. so P.E DAY. kapagod. kahit na mga basic excercise palang. ka haggard na na. mga push ups, sit ups, jumping rope, one leg balance and all that. so so soooooooo tiring. 

napipilitan tuloy akong umuwi after p.e para maligo, tapos babalik nanaman, sayang pamasahe! tska sayang energy tsk. 

kanina ngang pag uwi ko after PE, kasalukuyan kong naglalakad ng may tumigil na can sa side ko, ther’s a man who’s asking me for directions, taga apalit daw kase siya, at kanina pa paikot ikot sa lugar namen, so i said to him where he have to go, base on what he told me, tas sabi niya “pwede mo ba ko samahan, para mabilis? kanina pa kasi talaga ako dito eh”..

and me, being so NICE and naively stupid, sumama naman ako! pero swear pagkasakay ko ng van niya, dun ko lang na realize kagagahan ko.. pero thank God, nakauwi naman ako ng safe, he’s a nice old man who has a special child sister. kwento siya ng buhay nya saken habang hinahanap pupuntahan niya. ako naman, smile at opo lang ang respond. pero INSIDE, nag papanic na talaga ako. na pano kung killer to? pano nako??? JOSKO! JOSKO! lord, help me. tanga tanga ko talaga.. grrrr.

 

pero eto nakuwi naman ako at buhay na buhay pa, and sabi nga nung friend ko, atleast i have a LESSOn learned. tapos sinbihan ako ng gaga ko kase talaga. lol. di ko naman siya masisisis, tama nga naman siya. ang gaga ko. haha.

 

later in the EVENING. last subject, tagal dumating ng prof namin, so nagkwentuhan kaming girls ng R 131. (konti lang kaming girls eh. engineering kase ) ..

napagpasyahan naming mag chikahan at mag open forum. nagsabihan kame ng secreto, and likes and first impressions. FUNNY. laging masunget at maarte and sinasabi saken, e ang bait ko naman.pag tulog. haha joke. 

tapos nagkwentuhan na kame about sa buhay buhay namin, nagkwento ako ng nakakatakot na nanggyari saken, dito sa family ko, nung highschool ako, tapos kinwento ko SIYA. tapos, nag truth or dare kame. pero dahil wala na yung mga classmate namen, kase wala na talaga di na dumating si prof DG. puro TRUTHS na lang. hehe.

unang paikot ng ballpen, kay TEP. at syempre dahil ako ang longest friend ni tep, ako nagtanong, “napatawad mo na ba si first bf sa ginawa niya sayo??” sagot naman niya, “sino yun? haha. ou naman.”. first bf kase ni tep ay si mr. z na niloko siya, di alam ni tep na nung sila pala ay may gf ding iba itong lokong mr. z na to. pero well, past is past

second spin, AKO. tanong naman ni tep, “kelan mo sasagutin si SPVM??” , gaga talaga yun, ibuking ba ang love life ko, haha. “diba nga sabi ko next month pa.. adik” “whooo. pakipot kapa! dun din pupuna yun!” gaga talaga yun. diba niya alam dalagang pilipina ako? haha.

next spin,si paula na. tanong sakanya, “sino ba talaga yung crush mo sa mga mates naten??” aba pakipot at shy type pa tong si paula, ayaw ba naman umamin, pero bandang huli inamin niya din, nagpapilit lang ng konte! haha. si ano daw crush niya.. si ano.. secret! lol

tapos si ate rosas na, “bakit ayaw mong mag bf?? except sa dahilan na bawal”.. aba showbiz ang sagot, “ayaw kong masaktan e, di ko siguro kayang i handle yun” palakpakan for that, pang drama si ate rosas! lol

last, si ica.. “bat ayaw mo pa ding mag bf??” pareho nalang tanong kay rosas, la maisip eh hehe. “kase, yung gusto ko ayaw saken,yung ayaw ko, gusto ako.. yun”

bongga lahat ng sagot nila haha. tapos ayun, nagkwentuhan pa kame ng madami pa, na hindi na pwedeng isulat dahil masyadong madami at personal

 

basta today or should i say TONIGHT, is a very nice night. nagiging close nakameng mga girls, (excluding doggie ) date kase medyo hinde pa eh.

NOTE: SINO BA SI DOGGIE???

yung mate naming EWAN, haha. all i can say is.. play dead you sucker!

lol 

 

 

 

 

o siya, thats pretty much it. and GOODLUCK on my report tom! 

 oh god, give me luck..

ciao! mua

 

 

 

 

wanted sweetheart :D

September 8, 2009

 

so happy. gawa na ang mahiwaga kong radio. so am now listening to my favorite radio station. brgy LS 97.1 ayos gyud! wanted sweetheart ang show nila every night. from 9pm-12midnight sa wanted sweetheart, may dalwang caller ang tatawag, isang guy at isang girl, tapos may DJ, which is PAPA DAN, na parang magiging cupid SLASH matchmaker nila. katawa talaga tong show nato. lalo na yung mga iba’t ibang pag iisip ng mga tao na tumatawag na talagang nagpapasaya kahit papano sa buhay ko pero syempre isa din sa dahilan si PAPA DAN. napaka cute eh. full of humor pa. super natural.  

 may caller nanaman tonight. sabe nung lalakeng caller.. “LOTTO kaba? hanngang ngayon kase umaasa ako sayo”

yun oh. bumanat ng ganun? tawa tuloy ako ng tawa, kaya napagalitan ako kase nga mag 12 na. actually i just remembered my classmate paulo from that banat e.kaya mas natawa pa ako lalo

dapat kase walang pasok today because its the coronation of Mama Mary, but since my school is such an abnormal school, we have class! fck.  but since i thought there is no class. pinaglaban ko ang akin at di ako pumasok ng class ko sa chemistry lab from 1-4pm. nanood akong sine with my cousins eh kimidora! katawa promise, kakawala ng stress haha.

so pumasok nako yung next class ko which is 4.30 pm.

pagkapasok ko, sabi ng friends ko, la daw  talaga pasok ng lab kanina. la daw si mam. HURRAH! swerte ko ah. first time kong mag absent di pa naging counted! haha.

 

so ayun, pumasok ako ng room tapos bigla tinawag ako ni paulo, pinaupo ako sa tabi niya tapos bumulong “bat di mo na ko nireplayan kahapon?”

sabi ko naman “nireplayan kaya kita! late nga lang ahe”

adik tong si paulo eh, lakas ng trip. at lagi ako ang nakikitang pagtripan! kung makatitig, parang hinuhubaran ka! kaya sabi ko, “loko. manyak ka paulo!” sabay tayo at punta sa upuan ko. aba e sinundan ba naman ako.. hinila niya upuan niya! e katabi ko si ate rosas nun. kaya nagkatitigan kame. tapos etong si paulo nagsimula nanaman, daming banat ang binanggit! inubos niya ata lahat ng alam niya. ako naman tawa lang ng tawa. pati si ate rosas nakikitawa din. tapos tumayo si ate rosas,  binulungan ulit ako ni paulo “anong favorite song mo?? gusto mo kantahan kita?” sabi ko naman e wag na kase anlakas na nga ng ulan tapos kakanta pa siya.. e cge parin nagkanta pa din siya ng closer you and i tska moonlight over paris.

loko yun. kakatawa. watta a flirty guy. tinatawa ko nalang. lam ko naman kaseng ma trip lang talaga itong si paulo eh. kung si GM pa yun siguro kinilig pa ako. haha. 

(NOTE: si GM ay ang aking crush sa mga classmates ko. pero FORMER crush nalang, na turn off nako eh. nag iba kase ng hairstyle, medyo pumanget tuloy. mukha niya paman din si papa piolo pascual. PROMISE )

 

sana talaga di nalang ako pumasok kanina. kase 7.30 pa pasok ko eh. wala lahat ng teacher ko from 1-7pm. grabe. nabaliw kami sa kakalaro ng ano ano dun kakahintay ng oras. para kaming mga elemtary hindi college students!   tapos nung last subject na, e seatmate ko si paulo, umalis ako sa upuan at tinabihan ko si ate rosas at tep. tapos tinawag ako ni paulo nung nakita niya ako, “ganyanan no! cge..” ako naman tawa lang haha

reporting kami sa last subject eh, ako na nga magrereport sa friday eh. kinabahan tuloy ako. hmp. im not really used to reporting. im not the kind of person na walang hiya when it comes to that kind of thing.tsk. pano kaya ako magrereport??? hmmm.

 

hay. kapagod pala magkwento ng detalyado dito sa blog. tinry ko lang naman pero nakakapagod pala talaga. haha.

 

HALA. nagising nanay ko. ayun. sermon. matulog na daw ako. sus. kaka online ko lang ah! 

o siya, till nxt time. GOONIGHT CHUMS! kiss

 

 

NORMAL AKO! :D

September 7, 2009

 

bwiset. sira na naman connection ng chat sa facebook.
YAN TULOY DI KO NA MA REP YUNG crush ko sa fb!!! ee

sira pa reader ng mmc ng phone ko.
di ko tuloy mapaprint yung documentary nmin sa nstp!!!
at di ko din ma upload mga photos ko at friends ko sa fb and fs.

sira din radio at music player ko.
di ko na tuloy mpakinggan ang idol kong si papa dan sa wanted sweetheart!
mahal na mahal ko pa man din show na yun. aww

ou na.. bat di ako mkinig sa totong radyo. e wala kaming radyo eh! eee.
HAHA nbabaliw nako..

napaka daming sira sa buhay ko ahh. nakakahalata nako haha.
nakakahalata nako na lang enta nanaman post ko ngayon! haha.

pagusapan nalang siguro natin yung KAABNORMALAN NG TAO NA NORMAL naman talaga.
(naguluhan ka??? ako din eh! haha)

KINAKAUSAP ANG SARILI

- eto lagi ko tong nararansan. sa harap ng computer pag ako mag isa. sa harap ng salamin. sa banyo. sa school (habang nag tetest o nag aactivity.. ewan ko ba bat kinakausap ko sarili ko kahit may mga tao nman sa pligid ko n pwede kong kausapin, sbrang abno nba ako?? ), sa daan habang pauwi o habang papunta. sa bahay. sa canteen. kahit saan! haha
ewan ko ba bat ang sarap kausapin ng sarili pag naguguluhan ka, nalilito, may iniisip, o may gustong malaman. ayon naman sa nabasa ko NORMAL lang to. so normal pa tayo mga self talkers!!! (nu daw??)

TUMATAWA MAG ISA

- actually ito mejo abno na nga to. pero madalas tong mangyari kapag may naalala kang nakakatawa na naikwento sayo o nangyari sayo. nakakahiya to lalo na kapag kaw lang mag isa at napapaligid ang maraming tao na di mo kilala (halimbawa sa jeep! ). aus lang sana to kung kaw lang mag isa na nasa bahay kaso kung hinde! ayun na ang kahiya hiya haha.

KUMAKANTA MAG ISA

- normal naman talaga to kung tutuusin eh. di nga lang mukhang normal sa harap ng iba na di mo kakilala lalo na kung ikaw lang mag isa tapos madaming tao. hehe. masarap kase minsan magkanta lalo na kung umuulan tapos bigla kang napa emote at na feel mong magkanta habang naglalakad o kaya e nakasakay sa jeep, di kaya kapag masaya ka kaya gusto mo pa ding magkanta ng happy sha lala..
napakanatural na kase sa mga pilipino ang salitang kantahan. music lover ata tayo talaga e!

PAGTAWAG SA NANAY/MAMA/MOMMY/INA/MUDRA PAG NATATAKOT.

- madalas ko tong gawin kase nahawa ako dun sa friend ko nung 4th year highschool. kahit ano gawin e lagi nalang nakasigaw ng “nanay”. at eto naman akong ewan na adopt ko yun. kaya nga tuwing kung ano lang e nany ako nanay.
pero normal naman to sa tao dahil pag natatakot ka o may nangyayari sayong masama ang mommy natin una natin talagang naaalala

KINAKAGAT ANG KUKO/KAMOT NG ULO

- ewan ko kung considered ba to, e wala na kase ako maisip eh. pero hinde! considered to wag kayo makelam dahil blog ko to hahaha.
madalas tong gawin pag na f - frustrate, kinakabahan, nagiisip, naguguluhan at iba pa. lalo na ako, kanina pa isip ng isip ng isusulat dito kaya, naubos na ata kuko ko. haha.
pero wag ng mag deny kase lam ko manerism din ng iba to hehe.

at ang last eh ano pa ba (pwede ring sino pa ba.. )

edi AKO!

- actually para masulat to, nagtanong tanong pako sa mga kaabnormalan ng friends ko na ginagawa nila na considered normal naman pala. eh sagot ba naman e AKO daw. kaloko yun ahhh, pero natawa naman ako sa sagot niyang yun kaya sinama ko ang aking sarili dito. (kahit parang di nman totoo! DIBA! DBA!! )
isa nga lang akong simpleng nilalang sa mundo na nabubuhay ng payapa at matiwasay. at normal talaga ako no. peksman. mamatay ka man. pacama suman duman halaman.
(diba normal na normal )

oh yun lang. la na gusto pumasok sa aking isipan eh. haha.
toodles

 

 

 

 

——- ♥♥♥ imisshim Ü

take you forever Ü

September 6, 2009

 

aww. im on the oven of LOVE again. and i wish i wouldnt be in the shop of agony and pain :(

he said he love me. but im too young to know if that’s true, if that will last forever.

 

i just received a text quote from a friend now..

 

kung nalulungkot ka dahil hindi pa dumarating ang nakatadhana sayo…

wag ka masyado mag alala dahil kahit siya, hindi pa din masaya dahil la ka pa ..

 

naks. di nga?? haha.

 

ok serious again. because this is the only time im serious.. if you just know me in person. you’ll probably say i have a double personality disorder lol

 

what am i talkin bout again?? oh yeaaa. my freaky love life. hakhak.

funny thing. i miss him now. i miss him so much that it hurts..

 even though were txting now, still miss him. (kung mababasa niya lang to, abot tenga tawa nun haha )

 

just recieve a reply from him now. because i asked him kung baket niya ako mahal. (sobrang keso ba? haha! mas keso sagot niya eh. talo ako haha)

he replied “cos i dont have a reason not to.. “

 

naks kilig ang bata haha

 

feeling this kind of feeling makes me feel HAPPY. very actually. but there’s still a worry in my heart

pano kung bigla nalang niya ako iwan? pano kung bigla nalang to matapos??

pano kung masaktan nanaman ako ulit???

guess i’ll be abnormal again by that time. haha. and well watever. too MUCH DRAMA IS NOT HEALTHY. so not.

am still young and energetic! haha

 

 anyway,

i replied him.. i said “ok lang kung someday hind mo na ako mahal, wag mo lang ako kakalimutan forever.. hehe “

and he replied.. “sabagay, ikaw ang pinaka walang isang salita na nakilala ko.. ” OUCH

syempre tampo effect ako, but he txted again.. ” pero ikaw din ang nakakuha ulit ng PUSO KO after a long time.. “

 

 

i know. its raining cheese lol

  

 

ok. enough cheese for now.

later! bye. kiss

 

 

 

 

 

 

SMILE.. no matter what. Ü

 

loveishate

August 25, 2009

 

im so confused. i like this guy. we met through FB. and he said he likes me too. but im

scared to go in a relationship now. i dunno if im ready..

 

whenever i see lovers now, i get mad?? or is that jeaousy?? .. its not the fact that i dont have a love life.

its just because somewhere inside me, there’s a PAIN that tells me that i could have been happy like that.

but i never had a chance. HE NEVER ALLOWED THAT CHANCE.

 

 

i still remember him.. though he’s now with somebody (my friend, specifically ). its ok now. theres no hurt anymore.

but im still not comfortable to talk about him. and hear my friend get excited and get so inlove with him.

i can feel that she’s not comfortable about that fact too.

 

i said this many times already.. its not HIM that really hurts me inside.

its what could have been us. thats what hurts.

 

 

im my dreams, YOU ARE MINE,

in reality… you are my dream.

itsWEIRD

August 12, 2009

 

its weird. i feel weird. im weird.

why do i miss you??

 i’ve read something from the net last night that if you cant remove someone 

from your mind.. maybe they’re supposed to be in your heart.

now… is that bullsh*t or what?? lol )

 

i dont know why im writing now, since i feel so lazy and tired because my

favorite niece got hospitalized so i took care of her for the whole day. (phew)

 

i dont really know what to say now so i’ll just share to you my WISH LIST.

1. to finish my course.

2. pass the board exam.

3. have a very very very nice job!

4. get a second course in conservatory of music and arts.

5. meet HIM

6. pass my second course

7. tour around the world

8. meet clipayb in the eifel tower!

9. meet my prince charming lol

10. have my own loving family!

11. give my parents a VERY comfortable life.

12. taste all the desserts around the world!

13. TRY BUNGEE JUMPING

14. tour around the phillipines.

15. visit eira in the US of A.

16. shopping in paris!

17. have my own website

18. meet daniel radcliffe in person! (all the cast! with J.K ROWLING)

 19. have my own band (rock and rolllll)

20. have a house made of chocolates! 

 

now the next wish list is made by me and my bffs

1. build our DREAM SCHOOL

2. replace the bart mall to a hi tech dorm

3. own resort and restaurant.

4. own BAR.

5. be zillionaires! 

RAIN

August 7, 2009

 

 

its been rainy lately.

i love the rain… but i hate getting wet. (i know im weird! )

when its raining, other people tend to feel lonely, im not one of those people.

im really happy when its raining. it makes me feel relax and for no reason, i feel like smiling.

i just love to stare at the rain and just think nothing. its very hard to be nothing.

to feel nothing. to think nothing.

and it feels great that the rain can make me feel nothing.

 

 

though sometimes, it makes me sad too… i just shrug it off and continue to being NOTHING. 

i must feel northing. 

HEY Ü

August 5, 2009

 

hello hello. im ceedee (not my real name) ..

im new here in i.ph! hurrah! aha.

 

 

i cant really say anything now because its already late.

so chiao for now. kiss!