its not really goodbye right?

March 26, 2010

 

its my last day in ENGINEERING BUILDING today. i feel so sad, like someone is taking away a big part of my life. i just really hope that whatever i finally decide on doing, i wouldn’t regret it in the end. 

i will miss you SH, you’ve been part of my life. i’ll miss you even though you’re the ugliest building in hau. i’ll miss you even if you have descrimination over women. but most of all, i’ll miss you because if it wasnt for you, i wouldn’t have met wonderful people, my beloved R-131.

i’ll miss you. i will. 

 

** sorry. crying now.

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oay. its my finals in algeb2 tomorrow. so gotta review now. goodluck to me! goodluck CEA! 

  

dont you just love my eyebags??? lmao. uso daw to eh. XD

still smiling :)))

February 7, 2010

 

 

i was like super confident in my last post that im moving on. but why cant i? siya kase. he keeps giving me reasons not to. im not saying im not going to move n. I AM. it will just takes a lot of time. 

first of all, i hate him that he still keep the money i shape like a heart. di niya pa ginastos. why? is he that rich? its making me confused. its like as long as he keeps that, my heart is with him too. i know, CORNY. lol.

second, he’s already courting someone else. but he still likes me, (or i think he does). he told my friend he didnt continue pursuing me because i told him before to back off. i mean, GUYS CAN BE DUMB. dont they get that when a girl says that, she meant the other way around. i mean, whooooa. this is making me mad. and besides i was mad at that time. now i know, we shoulkdnt be making decisions when mad. grr.

 

hahahaha. im so sorry, just need to say those. to release them. ya know. i know, this is super yesterday na. its like all what i ever talk about in this blog. i know your getting sick and tired of it. well, i am too. im getting sick of being tired, and tired of being sick. LIFE IS SO HARSH. especially mine.

oh well, its not as if i can do something about this if i keep on blabbing about it. someday, i know, its all going to make sense.

so have a happy lunch everyone! *hugs* 

 

 

i deserve to be happy.

January 23, 2010

 

  

got this from tumblr. AGAIN. lol. anyway, this post would be random and nonsense. i was just really bored to death!

school is not so great and not so not great either today. whatttt? haha. i was feeling super neutral today. actually, nowadays, i do feel kinda neutral. not happy, not sad. wth. seriously,  i need to get a life. suggestions where i can buy one? haha. kidding.

oh yeah, ive got a confession to tell, but swear you wont tell okay?

i still like him like uber. his face is like super duper glued in my mind. anywhere i look, i see him. its killing me like crazy! argh! what should i do?

 

 

 

waa! arayt. byeeeee! see you in heaven! beng!

serendipity - a fortunate accident.

January 20, 2010

 

 

so okay, i didn’t publish my super duper nasty post i made just a while ago. its full of hatred! and i decided i didn’t want to live in hate. i wanted to be myself again. the happy me. the me who always just laugh and smile like an insane girl. it will take time but i’ll survive. i know i will, because i have a lot of true friends that loves me. that are always there to make me feel happy.

okay so, actually, here is what really convince me to change my mind. i saw this on tumbr. and its so freakin cute! it made my day. put a smile on my face. i giggled like an idiot. lol. after seeing it, i cant help but feel okay, and not published the hate post.

this is TOP and GDRAGON.

 

TOP says: “What the hell is going on with your hair? Is it a dookung (the lid of a ramen pot)? kekekekeke puhahaha”

To which G-Dragon replies: “What about you? Is that supposed to be ramen on top of your head?

ROFL XD

anyway! i watch movies yesterday. lemme share them with you.

 

ive watched the movie SERENDIPITY yesterday. it was so beautiful. it made me believe in destiny, fate, and soulmates again. and when i say believe, i just believe that it does exist, that it can exist for other people, but not to all people, unfortunately. and that is the truth, the reality. because life isnt fair, and it will never will. 

here are some lines, that kinda taught me something.

“If we are to live life in harmony with the universe- we must possess a powerful faith in what the ancients used to call  fatem… what we currently refer to as destiny.”

“I think we make our own decisions, i just think that fate sends us little signs, and it’s how we read the signs that determines whether we’re happy or not.”

“If you want to improve, be content to be thought foolish and stupid.”

“The greeks didn’t write obituaries. When a man died, they asked only one question: did he have passion.” 

the story is about two people meeting “accidentally” while shopping for christmas presents in a department store. they departed ways that night, only knowing names of each other, but no phone numbers because they decided that if destiny wants, they would still see each other. i dont really want to go in details on telling an intro about this, because it would be spoilers about the movie! basta. it is a story of destiny with sense of humor. ^_^

click HERE if you want to watch it!

 

next movie i watch is 500 DAYS OF SUMMER. remember, it is not a love story. its a story about love. (sorry, i love that line so much. lol)

it is a romantic comedy too, just like serendipity. but both movies are unique in their own ways. 

500 days of summer can be pretty much summed up in one of the first lines of the film. “this is a story of boy meets girl. but you should know up front, this is not a love story.” but is it? 500 Days of Summer is not your typical romantic film. there’s something to it, something more than your usual romantic comedy. maybe it’s the style it’s done? maybe it’s the realistic nature? maybe it’s the wonderful music? maybe its the beautiful cinematography? maybe, its Tom and Summer…

i dont really know how to describe it, basta! its a great movie. ^_^

i totally love it actually! you should see it! unfortunately, i cant find a full movie online to it. im sorry. 

 

SO THATS IT PEOPLE! telling this made me feel better. i hope it did made you feel kinda nice too. so ciao!

goodbye my almost lover???

January 17, 2010

 

 

  

okay. hindi ko na ma take ito. meron nanamang problema!` he wants to stop na. he told me, his friend likes me too, and he doesn’t want their friendship to be ruined. so he wants to let me go… 

im super sad, i wanted to cry! why is life this harsh?????????

he told me, kung alam ko lang daw kase kung gaano ako ka gusto ng friend niya… i wanted to tell him, kung alam mo lang din kung gano kita ka gusto. >_<

im tired of this drama. but i dont want to give him up. sabi niya, friends muna kame. i said ok, wala na din naman akong magagawa. he said, kung walang ginawang move ang friend niya, he’ll continue again. just doesn’t seem right, right now. 

i get him, he doesn’t want to betray his friend. he doesn’t want to hurt him. i get that! but its hard for me.

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okay, im kinda okay now. i will be friends with him. but i will not give him up either. so aja! ^_^

  

 

i feel guilty beyond reasonable doubt.

 

its ICA’s birthday today! aw.happy birthday headban! iloveyou. ^^

 

i feel happy and sad and guilty today. remember CRUSH from my last entry? he’s courting me now! aw. *kiligwithasmile* and i dunno but, i really feel guilty about that. >_< because one of my friends has a huge (???) crush on him too! i feel selfish for thinking and  choosing my own happiness, instead of hers. i feel like ive betrayed her, even though she didn’t tell me directly she also likes him, someone just told me. i feel evil. like my 2 horns and tail are begining to show up again. :/

i know this kinda sounds shallow. but i know what it feels like to have someone you like court and like someone else. especially if that someone is your friend. it hurts. like a real stabbing-your-heart-and-no-one-is-there-to-fix-them-hurt.

 

i mean, how can life be so unfair? 

all of a sudden, i’ll meet my happiness, but then that happiness, my happiness… will also mean of taking away someone else’s?  in order for me, JUST ME, to be happy?

THATS BULL. 

 

 

 

 

 

awww. >_<

i dunno what’s happening to me.

January 10, 2010

  

i was in a friends house this afternoon, and i happen to see what her mom was watching. she was watching close to you, the one with Bea Alonzo, John Lloyd and Sam Milby. the story is about falling in love with your bestfriend,  and i remember something about that.

i remember Guji Lorenzana! (you know, my crush? the v cute singer/actor. haha ) because it was their topic in mellow radio last night. their topic were “is it possible to fall in love with your bestfriend?”and “is it okay to fall in love again, after a break up with a long time relationship?”. 

 

actually, i didn’t get to listen that much in his discussion about it because i was just watching in blogtv. i was just looking at his face, and silently drooling. kidding! haha. but seriously, im so grateful that blogtv exist. that way, i can watch him live dj-ing in his radio show. and he replies to your chats too, if you’ll ask him. i mean, how cool is that??? VERY COOL! haha. and yeah, i was jealous to the girls who are there live in the station! what do they call it again? a booth? basta yun. i saw them took pictures with him, with papa Guji actually hugging them! haha. im uber envious. hmp. O_o

 

btw, i would like to share to you my love horoscope for today. lol.

LEO

This is one of those romantic periods that will be very intense for you, Leo. Whether you are single or attached, you are certainly feeling your needs with some intensity. You may want someone so bad you can taste it, but figuring out exactly how to be seen in a favorable way can be a problem. The tendency to be too choosy and too critical of what’s presented to you can leave you coming up empty handed, so if you can’t have your way entirely, have it half way and enjoy what’s there. This does not mean you will be settling for less than you deserve, but merely whetting your appetite for more creative romance down the road.

 

it is confusing.  lol.

 

PS. i know its kinda too late now but im getting addicted to tumblr! haha. 

i guess 2010 is not for me tsk

January 1, 2010

 

sorry for the title. dont mind me, im just pissed at myself. i never knew i was bad. i guess i just hide it well. yeah, longstory.

anyway, im just reposting this. got it from www.marlytheexplorer.blogspot.com you can repost it, if you like.

highlight the sentence that you made this past 2oo9.

  1. Did something you said you would never do.  (yeah, like do drugs and all that. KIDDING!)

   2. Paid for someone who said they would pay you back but never did.  ( i sorta forgot about this already, but this remind me. lol)

   3. Lied about where you were.  (i didn’t mean to! *wink*)

   4. Discovered a new musician. (yes! thanks to my blogger friends ^_^)

   5. Made something for a friend. (i guess i did, ^^.)

   6. Got a new phone.

   7. Got a new iPod/Zune/Mp3 player.

   8. Watched three or more episodes of Saturday Night Live.

   9. Made fun of someone. (im sorry! i was just kidding around! XD)

  10. Created a Tumblr. (yeah, and for the record, used it only once. lol)

  11. Flew on a plane for the first time.

  12. Spoke in front of 15 people or more. (yeah, school stuff)

  13. Met someone in real life that you originally met online. (yeah, nostalgia… >_<)

  14. Done something illegal.

  15. Did your siblings chores for money.

  16. Stayed up all night thinking about the worst thing that could possibly happen to you, later find out that you worried for nothing. (yeah! i almost died thinking about it.. lmao.)

  17. Hurt somebody you didn’t mean to hurt. (yes, and im sorry. >.<)

  18. Hugged your mom or dad.

  19. Baked a cake.

  20. Made a new friend (yes! go engineering! lol)

  21. Lost an old friend.

  22. Changed your views on society. (im actually starting to care people.. lol)

  23. Laughed at something that wasn’t funny. (yeah, im weird lol)

  24. Got upset over something that wasn’t a big deal. (and yeah, i can be shallow too. >.<)

  25. Had a horrible birthday.

  26. Got a Facebook. (what can i do? friendster sucks. lol)

  27. Deleted your Myspace.

  28. Cried because you missed old times. (yes… T_T)

  29. Cleaned your room. (ALMOST! lol)

  30. Have a new found appreciation for someone you never expected to. (yeah, thank you very much ^_^)

  31. Told someone you love them.

  32. Told someone you hate them.

  33. Screwed something up but didn’t mean to. (my grades! lol)

  34. Received a gift.

  35. Gave a gift.

  36. Read a book that wasn’t for school.

  37. Ate a lollipop.

  38. Threw away something by accident

  39. Smoked a cigarette.

  40. Ran a mile.

  41. Switched schools.

 42. Aced a test.

  43. Wished you were in the past. (yeah, present life kinda suck. lol)

  44. Got scared about the future. (always)

  45. Got yelled at by your parents.

  46. Lost a family member.

  47. Saw an old friend.

  48. Went to church/synagogue.

  49. Hugged a stuffed animal.

  50. Said you’re going to make next year better. (yeah, but i dunno know if i can..)

 

empty/literally