there is no guarantee that this life is easy.

sooo hello guys!  thanks so much for the comments on my last post. and for not hating me. YET. hahaha. kidding.

so uh. i just want to share what’s up on my ever boring life.

i just finished YOU’RE BEAUTIFUL. wee. and yess. just like any fan girl. i am in love with JGS. i mean with his bad boy looks and sexyness and his voice! waa! okay. im not in love with Jang Geun Suk, i am in love with Hwang Tae Kyung which is his character in you’re beautiful. i like a ba boy tooooooooooooo X)

and yess. i am writing 4 stories. but i havent uploaded them yet! sooo, i’ll just inform you when they’re finished. if ever you want to actually read them. hoho. i mean, they’re not good. im very dissapointed at myself. hoho. XD

PBB TEEN CLASH started last night. and so my dash in tumblr was full of ivan’s face. like duh? he’s not that good looking! in fact.. he looks gay! and he is probably is gay. i mean, he’s too beautiful! TOO BEAUTIFUL. i mean, would you even want a boyfriend who is much more beautiful than you? i mean duh.  i am blabbing again here. stopppppp meeeeeee.

sigh. what im trying to say is… PATRICK. the green archer guy. the lassalista one eho has a very cute smile that makes you want to kiss him… is way more attractive than that ivan guy. if you disagree ill kick your ass then push you off a cliff. and i am serious. 

JOKE. hahahahaha.

i am getting  crazy here. i mean who wouldnt? i wake up at 1pm in the afternoon everyday then went on babysitting my alaga up to like 6pm then go online for like until 3am. YESS. i freakin dont have a life! haha. what a great summer im having.

anyway, may i just rant over tumblr? i just dont get why good looking people in tumblr have thousand of followers. when i went and check their sites. all i see are messages telling them how cute and sexy and adorable they are. ano yun fan site? i mean, i thought tumblr is supposed to be a freakin blogsite. then why is it becoming like a beauty pageant site? i know not all of them are like that. just some of them. ya know. othes are really great in blogging.and i do mean real great. they live an exciting life that’s why there’s so much to say about their life. 

and yes i am guilty that i follow these good looking people in tumblr too, the ones that are not really good in blogging. because i am fond of seeing their faces, i mean. babae lang ako. gwapo sila. hahahaha.

i know they’re totally not worth following. soo i must unfollow them later.

on the second thought, i will not. unfollwing is rude for me. so whatever na lang. sa mukha na lang ako. hoho. XD

anyway, any suggestions how i can make my summer much much more productive? i mean, yes i babysit, but anything more productive than that? but ya know, it cant involve money. im currently broke at the moment because ya know, no class, no allowance. i know it sucks 

so suggestions not involving money would be nice. thanks so much.

oh and i recommend you read stargirl! it is a story of a weird, strange, odd, bizzare… basta weird girl that fell in love. basta its good! it made me cry. and im a crybaby. sarreh. haha.

click here for the book one and book two!  ^_^

and oh i want to read message in a bottle of Nicholas Sparks too. they say its good. so click here if you want to read it too! 

that’s all thank you! 

 ako na maiksi ang palda. tse! hoho

i know everything would be alright.

hey guys! im so sorry i havent updated for a while. im just kinda not myself lately. i dont know why. but anyway, i’ll just tell you about my exposure trip last march 14.

it was not that great, because all we did was walk under the cruel burning sun from museums to museums, but it was good in a way that crush was sitted beside me in the bus. i mean not really, im really sitted with ate rose, who is in the window side, and so i was sitted across him, with the floor being the only space between us. haha.

i mean i know, i dont like him anymore, but because of that trip it came back. my like for him just came back. and i know im being foolish again, but having him sitted beside me, listening to the love songs in the radio, him singing with it, i would just like to think he’s singing for me (i know, ambisyosa. lol), it made me happy and thought that maybe, just maybe he’s happy to be sitiing beside me too.

and that’s the only cheesy scene, we argued and laugh most of the time, so whatever, i know he only treats me as a friend. just a friend. end of story.

btw, here are some pictures. they kinda doesnt make any sense, but whatever. haha. 

  

 

 

 

 

 

 

okay, enough pictures. just add me in facebook if you want to see all the pictures which are like 300 or something. lol. and btw, yeah you guess right, or not. haha. crush is the one in blue. the one who’s making pa-cute with the korean ‘V’ sign, not the other one. okay? haha. and yes, im freakin sad we dont have a picture together, i had a chance to have one you know, but i ignored it to stop the “tuksuhan”. i know. sucks to be me. haha.
 
but oh well, whatever. everything is fine. and i just notice that this post was about him again. tsssh. 

still smiling :)))

i was like super confident in my last post that im moving on. but why cant i? siya kase. he keeps giving me reasons not to. im not saying im not going to move n. I AM. it will just takes a lot of time. 

first of all, i hate him that he still keep the money i shape like a heart. di niya pa ginastos. why? is he that rich? its making me confused. its like as long as he keeps that, my heart is with him too. i know, CORNY. lol.

second, he’s already courting someone else. but he still likes me, (or i think he does). he told my friend he didnt continue pursuing me because i told him before to back off. i mean, GUYS CAN BE DUMB. dont they get that when a girl says that, she meant the other way around. i mean, whooooa. this is making me mad. and besides i was mad at that time. now i know, we shoulkdnt be making decisions when mad. grr.

hahahaha. im so sorry, just need to say those. to release them. ya know. i know, this is super yesterday na. its like all what i ever talk about in this blog. i know your getting sick and tired of it. well, i am too. im getting sick of being tired, and tired of being sick. LIFE IS SO HARSH. especially mine.

oh well, its not as if i can do something about this if i keep on blabbing about it. someday, i know, its all going to make sense.

so have a happy lunch everyone! *hugs* 

can i restart?

i mean, i’ve read my previous entries, and they sound so emo! argh! i hate that. i hate it when i feel so weak and stupid.

but i still don’t want to delete them, because they have beautiful advices from you. ^_^ im happy about that. thank you everyone, especially ate Rich. ^_^ and my engineering friends, and highschool bestfriends. thanks!

okay, so CRUSH IS CRUSHED now. so whatever. i still dont know what i really feel, i guess i’ll find out tomorrow, when i see him. ayokong magsalita ng tapos. (tama ba?) haha. 

but for now, i still have tons of homeworks. so later! i love you all people! *smile*

i’ll make every second counts..

HELLO! i have started a STORY BLOG. i just finished the first half of chapter one. so please visit it???

PRETTY PLEASE?? PLEASE?

i know i am not an expert writer, but i just felt the need to express the thoughts that’s been swimming in my mind. the need to release it. ya kow what i mean? hehe.

so please visit it HERE.

even though my story is just somehow silly. visit it and let me know what you think, and i’ll love you!

THANS SO MUCH! ^_^ 

ikaw BRO, ang star ng pasko *_*

advance merry christmas virtual friends! i’m very happy that i’ve met you all. naks. ayokong magdrama. haha.

anyway, i just wish you and your family happiness and more blessings this christmas! i love you all!

and don’t forget! CHRISTMAS is about our daddy JESUS CHRIST, and not santa claus okay? so please, visit him, just for this occasion, which is his birthday. magsimba tayo ah? talk to him. ^_^

GOD BLESS US ALL!

this is my life anyway..

its funny how easily we ge attached to someone we’ve known for just weeks. Its even funnier to feel HURT when that someone starts to value you LESS than he used to. and you can’t even complain about it because you are just ATTACHED, not COMMITED.

GOODNIGHT BLOGGERS! 

PS. my emote is not true! lol. just wanna be emo before I got to sleep! haha. Ü

and hell yeah, i am weird. 

candles — hey monday!

I love this song! because someone dedicated it to me. lol. but seriously, I love it. ^_^  (casadee is an amazing singer)

CANDLES - hey monday

i was feeling down, then he smiled.. and everything is okay again :)

good evening bloggers. im so happy tonight. and sad and starving all the same time! haha. i have a stomach ache and headache. that’s why i was so badtrip in the cemetery. i was feeling bored for an hour or two, then suddenly, this guy came, he is wearing a red shirt, so we will call him RED.. my red. lol. he came with his mom, they know our family, i guess that’s why they stopped by, bec. i never saw him before, till now. but then they stayed sa kabilang puntod, which is our relatives too. so i thought, “oh fuck.. this cute guy, is our cousin”. oh yeah. that’s so sad. hhe. 

but the good thing is he keep on looking at me, and i keep on looking at him back too! lol. and before i go, i was about to go home.. he looked at me, and kinda smiled. and that was the end of our story.. FOR NOW. 

i’ll wait for him again, on the next all saints day.:)

we can never tell, he may not be a relative, he might be my soulmate. haha. (sorry top, your still the one lol)

chicken soup for breakfast :)

goodmorning blogger addict. (i meant that for meself. lol). today, i decided to share a story, an inspiring story from the book “chicken soup for the soul”. 

before that, after we got home from our trip last night, i still stayed out and hang out with my cousins BECAUSE i was waiting for my steak and chicken in cafe world to get cook, so that i can serve it. how funny is that? haha. i feel so immature. but whatevs, i love that game. and so i got home 12, but my bother is already using the PC. what a bummer. tskk. haha. and because i wasnt sleepy, i decided to read a book that would inspire me, before i sleep. 

so uhm, here’s the story:

NO CHARGE - . Adams

our little boy came up to his mother in the kitchen one evening while she was fixing supper, and he handed her a piece of paper that he had been writing on. after his mom dried her hands on an apron, she read it, and this is what it said.

well, i’ll tell you, his mother looked at him standing expectantly, and boy, could i see her memories flashing through her mind. so, she picked up the pen, and turned the paper he’d written on, amd this is what she wrote:

for the nine months i carried you while you were growing insidew me, no charge.

for all the nights i’ve sat up with you, doctored and prayed for you, no charge.

for all the trying times, and the tears you’ve caused through the years, no charge.

when you add it all up, the cost of MY LOVE is NO CHARGE.

for all the nights that were field with dread, and the worries i knew were ahead, no charge.

for the toys, food, clothes, and for even wiping your nose, there’s no charge, son.

and when you add it all up, the full cost of REAL LOVE IS NO CHARGE.

well, friends, when our son finished reading what his mother had written, there were great big old tears in his eyes, and he looked straight up at his mother and said, “Mom, i sure do love you”. and then he took the pen and in great bg letters he wrote: “PAID IN FULL”.

 - e n d -

i decided to share this story because the first time ive read it, it really made me cry. it made me feel guilt, hurt, and love all at the same time by my mom. i was overwhelmed with my mom. and i hate it that sometimes, i feel that i want to hate her, but i will never ever. because my mom is a great mom, all mommies are. that’s why even though sometimes, my mom is a monster mom (sorry mommy Ü), i still love her, i will always love her. i love you mom, more than these 3 little words can say. 

love your mother a lot. never ever hate them, and if you can control, dont be mad at them for their imperfections, because that’s what really make them unique and lovable. and dont get mad for their overprotectiveness, because it just shows they really really love and care for you. feel lucky that they are with you, taking care of you. because some people didnt experience to have one.

hope you learn something.

HAVE A HAPPY LUNCH.

PS. i started writing this post, at 9:30 - breakfast time. but i finished it 11:30 - LUNCH TIME! the truth is, i finished it at 10:30 but our connection suddenly got lost, and boom! my post was deleted too. so i had to rewrite everything again. woooow. 

i love you, goodbye

i always love you, i have always love you, and i will alwys love you. not forever, but always.

tis our very last day today! arghhh. i cant believe ONE SEM had already passed. am still waiting if ive passed my ever freaky trigo. (wish i did, wish i did, wish i diddddddddd. puh lease??? *wink*)

i promise myself that after this day,i have and will forget HIM already. and i really wish i can.  i can do this. aja! haha.

im excited for second semester already. though it will be harder, i know, i can do it. God is with me always.im very excited to see new faces, and to make a lot of good friends. though i will not leave my evening schedule, my classmates will still change other sched. so im pretty sure, i will meet NEW people in second sem! weehee. Ü though surprisingly, i would really miss my original R131 classmates. aww. im so touching. lol.

TODAY IS OUR LAST DAY. (did i already said that before? lol). its our final exam in genchem lec. which is 5 - 7pm. but before that, me, tep, rose and ica met in the mall to have our ears pierce! woohoo. this is just a secret because my mom already forbid me, because i already have MANY piercings. hehe. but you see, im very stubborn. haha. sshh. so there, after our exam, we, girls, ate in mcdonalds first bec. its our last day together. (kunware di kami mates next sem lmao. ) but the boys, syempre, ano pa nga ba, nag inuman. haha. oh and one last thing, one of my classmates, even admitted he has a crush on me, its so funny, bec. he said he just said it now because he’s shy and will change sched already next sem. so its okay to admit it already. hehe.

soooooo, thats pretty much it.

GOONIGHT!