i am the ambitious journalist.

hello! thank you guys for greeting me and my friends a happy birthday! sadly, we didnt spend our anniversary together. i guess we’re so busy with our own lives now. oh well…

anyway, rich was asking about our name CLIPAYB, so im gonna share it to you why.

CLIPAYB came from the band click five. it was last march 28, 2008 when me and my bffs were in our house soundtripping, then suddenly clickfive’s happy birthday played, and eira was like, “sino kase nagkanta niyan? CLIPAYB?” then we all laughed., and that was how we got our name. pretty lame i know. lol.

BTW! i am making a new novel, its entitled “i fell in love with my brother the day he decided to get married.” i know, the title is too long. lol. haha.

and the other one is tagalog its title is “frog princess”

but please read it? its not yet done, but well. hope you can comment and rate at it. pretty please?

CLICK HERE for the stories.

thanks so much! 

PS. about my story before. the “when im with you”, i’ll try updating it this week.

thanks!

you will always be a part of me.

this pictures were taken when we were still in highscghool.

and yeah. i know, we still look so innocent.  XD

happy birthday clipayb! YESSSSSSSSS. its our birthday today! we just turn 2! yeah, two years of friendship isnt long enough to say that we’re so bff and all that, but ya know what? two years is more than enough, its more than enough to know and love and care for each other. i love them like yeah. they’re like the sisters i never had.

and now, we have different lives already. but we still love each other. because neither space, distance nor gap can ever erase what we had. and that’s memories. our memories that i value so much.

i love you always clibayb, not forever, but always.

PS. i hate the fact that i no longer write, what i like to call inspirational stuffs here. i mean, i become more and more dumb. omo. yeah, sucks to be me.

PPS. last day today! aw.. :/

its not really goodbye right?

its my last day in ENGINEERING BUILDING today. i feel so sad, like someone is taking away a big part of my life. i just really hope that whatever i finally decide on doing, i wouldn’t regret it in the end. 

i will miss you SH, you’ve been part of my life. i’ll miss you even though you’re the ugliest building in hau. i’ll miss you even if you have descrimination over women. but most of all, i’ll miss you because if it wasnt for you, i wouldn’t have met wonderful people, my beloved R-131.

i’ll miss you. i will. 

** sorry. crying now.

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oay. its my finals in algeb2 tomorrow. so gotta review now. goodluck to me! goodluck CEA! 

dont you just love my eyebags??? lmao. uso daw to eh. XD

love of my life, my soulmate, you’re my bestfriend. :)

i love you more than you will love me,

for loving you is the greatest feeling that ever happened to me,

and that every single bit of you means the world to me,

and as long as i have you in my life as a part, you will always be the friend i would be as one of the best.

now that life is too great to unbear, 

but what is the use of life, if you wouldn’t be the life i would be?

 - one of my best friends made this poem for me. im so touched. thank you kuya franko! i love you too.

PS. thank you for those who commented in my last cheesy post, appreciate it. *hugs*

speech about my love life. AGAIN.

so, okay, this would be another cheesy enrty, so ready yourself. hahaha. OA MUCH!

its our last day in NSTP today, so one of my classmates decided to get his nstp shirt sign by all my mates, so a lot of my mates did the same, including me!

eto na yung cheesy part. ganito kase yun, sabi ni crush saken “dyane, mag sign ka din saken..” eh sa back ng shirt sila halos nag sign kaya sabi niya, “dito banda no” sabi niya sabay turo sa dibdib niya habang nakangiting parang aso. eh syempre kilig ang lola niyo, so mag susulat na dapat ako, eh narinig pala ng mga classmates namin yun, kaya hala! sige! tuksuhan! kaya ayun nahiya ako kaya nilikod ko siya, at dun nalang ako nag sulat. oo na, KJ ako. haha.

tapos habang nagsusulat ako sa back niya, “sensya pinagpapawisan ako, mainit eh. anh hot mo kase.” OKAY SERIOUSLY, that was funny and shocking. hahaha.

after nun, libot libot pa ko sa classroom, pinapa sign ko sila sa shirt ko, tapos, nung andyan siya ulet, “name here, sulat ka din saken..” tapos sumulat siya, sabi niya pa “oh walang mag rereact ahh” tapos nagsulat siya, tapos bigla tilian nanaman mga baliw kong mates. kaalis niya pinabasa ko ano sinulat niya, ganito.. “DK, INGAT, YAB U - ARS” oo. ganitong ganito, walang sobra, walang kulang. walang edit. hahaha.

tapos after lunch, may practice kaming ballroom for finals in PE, andun din siya, pero di ko siya ka group. nung nag rest kami from practicing, andun siya nakaupo sa may side, lumapit ako kase andun yung bag ko,  tapos sabi niya “dyane, sulat ka ulit dito..” sabay turo dun sa puso na naka drawing na ngayon sa dibdib niya. at oo, kinilig ulit ako. bakit ba, bawal? haha. pero dahil nga eengot engot ako pag kausap o kaharap ko crush ko, lalo na pag ganyan siyang makitungo saken, i tend to say the most stupid things like reject him or something, so sabi ko, “eh wala na akong susulat dyan eh, nasulat ko na sa likod.” “okay lang, nireserve ko pa man din to sayo. sige na..” so kinuha ko naman yung pen, tapos susulat na ako, kaso, ewan ko ba, alam mo ba yung feeling na nanginginig ka pag malapit ka masyado sa taong gusto mo? ganun! so, lumayo ulit ako, tapos sabi ko mamaya nalang dahil mag p-practice na kame ulit, which is actually true.*wink*

so ayun ganun, kinukulit pa din niya ko, kada break, pero wala, olats ang lola niyo, pakipot effect. haha. kaya ayun, hanggang umuwi siya, di na ko nakapag sulat pa dun sa heart. i know. gaga talaga ako. wag mo ng sabihin pa.

tsaka actually, okay lang naman yun, ayaw ko naman talaga bigyan ng meaning bawat ginagawa niya, baka maging dictionary ako kung magkaganun man. haha. mahirap na.tsaka may mga lalaking sadyang malandi lang talaga diba?

and im pretty sure, friend lang turing niya saken eh. yun lang naman mga cheesy eh, most of the times, nag aasaran at nagbabangayan kame eh. and take note, tintapik niya lagi ako sa ulo, pag inaaway ko na siya, parang kuya ko! diba! ganun nya ko tatruhin, tama ba yun! aysus. 

oh.. new update! kakcheck ko lang ng fb account ko, nagcomment siya dun sa isang pic ko na may kasama lang akong statue. haha.

yung naksulat na title nung picture “boyfriend ni dyane”

ou na. para na akong dictionary, simpleng bagay na ganito, na papangiti na ang puso ko. haha.

well, continue ko na story, so ayun nga pag kauwi ko, hinubad at binasa ko yung mga nakasulat dun sa shirt ko, at narealize ko, MALI PALA AKO.

akala ko masaya ako ngayon dahil sa nag i love you siya saken (crush), pero mas nangibabaw pala yung lungkot at sakit nang mabasa ko mga sinulat ng mga friends ko, yung mga simpleng i love you at i will miss you nila. 

sobra ko silang mahal na masakit para sakin na mahiwalay sa kanila. 

sobrang sakit lalo na nung basahin ko message ni ica na “may time pa para magbago ka ng decision, namamag -asa talaga ako na sana di ka na mag shift…”

SORRY NAMAN SA DRAMA.  it just hurts so much. the thought of not being with them. though in know, i will find new friends, iba pa din sila. 

hay ewan, alamat sa pagbasa ng napaka char na post na ito. GOODNIGHT!

i know everything would be alright.

hey guys! im so sorry i havent updated for a while. im just kinda not myself lately. i dont know why. but anyway, i’ll just tell you about my exposure trip last march 14.

it was not that great, because all we did was walk under the cruel burning sun from museums to museums, but it was good in a way that crush was sitted beside me in the bus. i mean not really, im really sitted with ate rose, who is in the window side, and so i was sitted across him, with the floor being the only space between us. haha.

i mean i know, i dont like him anymore, but because of that trip it came back. my like for him just came back. and i know im being foolish again, but having him sitted beside me, listening to the love songs in the radio, him singing with it, i would just like to think he’s singing for me (i know, ambisyosa. lol), it made me happy and thought that maybe, just maybe he’s happy to be sitiing beside me too.

and that’s the only cheesy scene, we argued and laugh most of the time, so whatever, i know he only treats me as a friend. just a friend. end of story.

btw, here are some pictures. they kinda doesnt make any sense, but whatever. haha. 

  

 

 

 

 

 

 

okay, enough pictures. just add me in facebook if you want to see all the pictures which are like 300 or something. lol. and btw, yeah you guess right, or not. haha. crush is the one in blue. the one who’s making pa-cute with the korean ‘V’ sign, not the other one. okay? haha. and yes, im freakin sad we dont have a picture together, i had a chance to have one you know, but i ignored it to stop the “tuksuhan”. i know. sucks to be me. haha.
 
but oh well, whatever. everything is fine. and i just notice that this post was about him again. tsssh. 

last trip.

good evening! 

its our field trip tomorrow! im not that excited, i dont know why. maybe its because i know it would be the first and last field trip with my friends? 

but anyway, its a trip for our art appreciation class. so we’ll go to museums and watch a play called “tatlong maria”.

i’ll post a lot of pictures when we get home! and i do mean a lot. haha.

anyway, Mr. Noel Cabangon sang in our school today! i didnt really know him until now. and im a big fan of him now. haha. he’s the one who sang songs like kahit maputi na ang buhok ko. (that’s my fave!) i scream in happiness when he started singing it, and i do mean that literally. haha.

here’s the song: (sorry i cant find the version of Noel Cabangon! aw. sad face) haha.

he’s such a great singer. i love him. haha.

ohhh. my mom wants me to sleep already. so i better be a good girl and ober her now. so goodnight! *hugs*

"thank you" was all i could give in return.

and of course a hug if you live near me. haha.

oh well, its been a while, sorry if i didnt reply to comments and tags again. i was really super confused. but im very much grateful to all your advices. i appreciate them a lot.

but still, im confused. and i think i will be confuse all summer. and probably, even after i made my decision too. but, that’s part of life right? being unsure, confused and lost. it just mean our happy ending is still not there. so i cant do anyting but be patient right?

and though its so hard for me to leave my friends, because im the kind of person that once i was attached to a person, i just cant let them go. i guess, it will take a lifetime for me to let them go, i know what im doing will be for the best. for me. it may sound sellfish but its true.

though i know, i still havent made a decision, i know i’ll still choose to go for journalism. i just cant say i’ve already decided because its hard for me to let go of the things i love. its so hard, it hurts.

so yeah, whatever.

THANK YOU!

this post would be (super) random, you can just go on with your life without reading it. but i would love you if you do read it.lol.

(this is my sexy back. joke! haha. this picture was taken last year (i think??). thats just a henna tatoo btw, but i really love it! i want to have one again, but this time a real one. but i cant! my mom’s going to kill me if i do. haha.)

so uhm, sorry guys for unreplied tags, comments and everything. masyado akong naaaliw sa tumblr eh. but i promise i wont abandon this blog. i love this too much i’d rather jump off a cliff than leave this blog. (oa much?) haha. and i will reply to you all now, and even visit all of my affies. im that kind. haha. joke.

anyway, i have a problem again. and it involves my whole life, its a life and death situation. (sorry im so melodramtic today, i feel so hyper!) i want and at the same time doesnt want to shift to journalism. yeah you read right. JOURNALISM. i feel that it really is my kind of thing. but the super duper big problem is i dont want to leave my engineering family. shifting to another course means there would be a lot of changes. and i really hate changes. i hate feeling like im starting all over again. i hate to leave my friends. just the thought of leaving them scares me and makes me want to cry. but what can i do??? im so freaking confused. it makes me sad. i really love engineering, but i dont think its suited for me anymore. what should i do? please give me advices, and i would love you forever. thank you. Ü

and i just finished reading “the last song” too! by Nicholas Sparks. seriously, i love his works. and im starting to read “dear john” too now. the story is amazing btw, i loved it. it taught me a lot again. about forgiveness, first love, first heartbreak, life.

 click here if you want a copy of the ebook of the last song. 

and here for the copy of dear john. 

and since this post is pretty much. okay not just pretty much, its very random. i would like to share that i watched “LITTLE MANHATTAN” too last night! and it was the cutest love story ever! you should see it! its about a ten year old kid to falling in love with an 11 year old girl. its about family too. basta. its nice. 

i remember miss you like crazy by this poster ? hehe.

PS. sorry i cant find a link for the movie.

so that’s it.i will reply to all your tags now. keep safe! and please do leave a comment about my problem. thank you! *hugs!*

i feel so lucky to have you.

thank you guys for giving me advices and comforting me especially now that im at stake of losing my mind. *kidding* lol. but really thank you so much, i was very overwhelmed with all of you guys. *billion of hugggggggs!!!*

im really feeling better right now, i trust myself, i know i can do this. just please pray for me okay? thank you.

anyway, me and mom watched i miss you like crazy last sunday. and i was really happy that we’re able to hang out together even though we’re both so busy, i love it that we’re able to have quality time together ya know. i like the movie a lot by the way.you should totally watch it! even if you’re not in love. hehe. it was a great example of why i still should believe that each of us has someone that’s meant for us. he’s just out there, waiting for the right time, just like me. even though sometimes i feel so impatient to wait. hahaha. kidding.

and its true that “time is meaningless when you’re in love”

ooh anyway, im a homeless creature right now. they’re renovating our house, so i was staying at my cousins home sweet home. it was fun though because i was able to hang out with my cute nieces a lot. but i really miss my bedroom. boohoo.

ohh and something happened yesterday to me too. me and tep was in the restroom on the first floor of our building, i was still fixing myself, so step decided to go outside already because its hot, then suddenly someone peek from the cubicle near the mirror im using. i mean im not very sure what really happen, all im sure is i really saw something. i dont know if its a person, though i know i was alone in that bathroom, thats why i felt so scared i immediately went outside and told step what happen. my friends told me there really are spirits in our building, and i will never ever forget that thing i saw. i cant get it out of my mid. im feeling spooky just writing this down you know. and i didnt almost sleep last night too. i was really scared.

i blamed paranormal activity for that. hmp.

anyway sorry if there are a lot of typographical errors in this post, the light was turn off already because my nieces are sleeping already you know. so i would have to sleep too.

goodnight! may we all have happy dreams.

PS. and i mean it, i feel super lucky to have all of you i my life. ^_