FEBRUARY = love ?

February 4, 2010

 

  

this is probably late already but i want to welcome february too. WELCOME FEBRUARY!!! a lot of teens are waiting for this so called love month. its like Christmas for couples and lovers out there. and its like haloween for loveless, brokenhearted or loveless like moi. haha. kidding. 

seriously, i dont hate february. its not as if im the only one who’s loveless here. there are tons out there. its just that i hate the fact that february tend to make me feel like im all alone. know that feeling? sure, i recieve love and care from my friends and family every single day of my life. but sometimes, i cant help but think that it would have been nicer if someone special would love me the way i love him. to feel like when we’re together, we own the world. it would have been great if that’s the case, but its not. so i just have to accept that. life has never been fair anyway.

a lot of people say that HATE is such a strong word, including me. but sometimes people dont realize that LOVE is too, but they just say it and throw it like its nothing. dont they realize that loving someone means accepting that person fully with or without his/her flaws. and once you say it, you can never take it back, like its just a borrowed pen. 

im not bitter. i dont wanna be bitter. im just saying what i feel.

last night i finally realize that im worth loving because im a human created by God. that’s why last night, i decided to give up my feelings for someone that cant see my worth.

my friends have been saying that to my face already, for how many days now. but i dont want to hear it. because i cant accept it. but last night, i did. and i wanted to thank everyone who keeps giving me advices. i was blind and deaf at that time, i wanted to fight. but now, i realized, its already time to give up. because what im fighting for is not worthy to fight.  

so even though its too late, i wanted to restart my february with a smile. with hope and dreams. with love and care, with positive aura. sabi nga ni anne curtis diba. NO TO NEGATIVITY! haha.

this would be hard, but i know i can do it.

THANKS EVERYONE! GIVE LOVE THIS FEBRUARY! *hugsss*

 

 

 

 

 

 i hate it that because of you, half the time i didnt know i was smiling.

that with every little thing you do, it makes my heart bit faster than usual.

how can i move on when i still am in love with you?

i cant breathe without you, but i have to. :/

 

help me.