it was nice meeting you

2009 is almost at its end. and I really want to say a lot of things. but my cousin is bugging me already to take a bath and to get ready. blah blah blah.

so i’ll just do a quick post.

for all the things that had happen in 2009, it maybe good or bad. I am still thankful, that for everything that had happen, you were there for me. and i am sorry, for sometimes i am not there for you.

2009 had been special, and will always be special. because its in this year, that i met all of you guys. and i’m beyond happy because of that fact.  

i wish you all a happy new year! happy new start. happy new life. happy new you.

but remember to always look back, and remember that, 2009 once made you happy, made you special, made you stronger, made you fall in love, and made you wiser.

happy new year to you and your family!

I LOVE DEARS. always smile. ^_^ 

when im with you.

 i love this song a lot.  ♥♥♥

Saw you walk in to the room
Thought i’d try to talk to you
Babe, am i ever glad you wanted me too

♥_♥

i’ll make every second counts..

HELLO! i have started a STORY BLOG. i just finished the first half of chapter one. so please visit it???

PRETTY PLEASE?? PLEASE?

i know i am not an expert writer, but i just felt the need to express the thoughts that’s been swimming in my mind. the need to release it. ya kow what i mean? hehe.

so please visit it HERE.

even though my story is just somehow silly. visit it and let me know what you think, and i’ll love you!

THANS SO MUCH! ^_^ 

this would be random..

me and my mom watched “mano po 6″ yesterday. it was nice. good story about the love of a mother to her children. but i didn’t cry. im not in the mood to cry eh. lmao. but it was all in all nice because my mom and i got the chance to hang out together.. you know, mother-daughter bonding. ^_^

as always, they showed commercials of the upcoming movies before they start the movie.. and i want to watch the following! BADLY. (oa much? haha)

*THE VAMPIRES ASSISTANT

 - its a suspense, adventure, funny, thrilling movie about a guy named Darren who met a mysterious guy, which turns out to be a vampire, occasionally, he transform Darren into a vampire too. 

BASTA!  i can’t explain much because i dont really know it fully. but im really happy that its a book turn to a movie! i’ll definitely read it! wee. i dunno, but, i love anything that is vampire related. lol.

OH WAIT. its said in the poster that it was shown last 10-23-09! WTH??psh. whatever. whatever. i’ll still watch and read it. ^_^

btw, its not available as an e-book yet. T_T

* MY SISTERS KEEPER

 - im not sure if it has been shown already too. i still want to watch it! saw the trailer and everything. it was touching! and definitely a heartbreaking story. oh. it has a book too btw.

click here to get the e-book. if you want one, that is. hehe. 

and, i’ll make a list of the BOOKS, i badly want to read too! 

* AIRHEAD: BEING NIKKI and RUNAWAY by Meg Cabot

- ive read the first one. this is the second and third series of airhead. the story is about a straight A highschool student whose brain had been transplanted into the body of a teenage supermodel because an accident killed her body, but not her brains. 

i dunno if this can happen in real life or something, i guess not, but i just kinda believe because of the way they explain it in the book. oh i dunno! im confused. haha. 

and im really sad and MAD because the 2 books are not yet available as an e-book! aww. 

click here to get the first series, the one i’ve read.

* vampire kisses: THE COFFIN CLUB (book 5) and ROYAL BLOOD (book 6) by Ellen Schreibe

“I’m looking for a realationship I can finally sink my teeth into”
- Alexander Sterling

-  waah! i so love this. im a twilight fan, but i really think this is nicer than twilight saga. i’ve finish the first four books, and im really excited to read the other two! 

click here to get all the e-books! wee. ^_^

*  TUESDAYS WITH MORRIE by Mitch Albom

“Death ends a life, not a relationship.” 

- i know i got it saved here im my pc for months now, but havent read it yet! haha. im lazy men. ^_^

click here for the ebook. 

PS. oh yes, you guess right, or not. lol. i am living and surviving through e-books! haha. i haven’t got tons of money to buy a lot of real books you know. ^_^

THAT’S PRETTY MUCH IT. i am already starving. so s’later! *kiss*

i love you, you love me MORE

I have always been in love, always been hurt. There’s a time I come to realize I am not worth loving. I am not worth anything. Yes, I am worthless, for 16 years, that’s what I think of myself.. until He came into my life.

He gave me a reason to continue living, to continue fighting. He was, is, and will always be there. He will never leave me. Just the thought of doing so, hurts him.

He love me for what I am, and not for what others want me to be.

I know there are times I despise him, almost doesn’t believe in Him. Times that I would just forget Him. And even in doing so, He’s still there. He never left me, and never will.

He suffered a lot because of me, I a not perfect, in fact I am always stubborn. But despite all that, He still loves me.

Everyday I would say “I’m sorry, and I love you” but still do things to hurt him. I didn’t mean them. I never meant them, but I know He’s still in pain because I disobey Him, and YET, He continues to forgive me and love me.

His name is JESUS. He loves me unconditionally. and I know HE LOVES YOU TOO.

its his special day today. And I want to thank him for everything he have given me and my love ones. I know I haven’t been very good, but I tried, I really did. I’m just human, and I hope He understands that, on the second thought, I know that He does understand, that’s how much He loves me. And I love him too, not as much as He loves me, but closer. 

happy birthday Daddy Jesus!  I love you with all my heart. 

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! ^_^

ikaw BRO, ang star ng pasko *_*

advance merry christmas virtual friends! i’m very happy that i’ve met you all. naks. ayokong magdrama. haha.

anyway, i just wish you and your family happiness and more blessings this christmas! i love you all!

and don’t forget! CHRISTMAS is about our daddy JESUS CHRIST, and not santa claus okay? so please, visit him, just for this occasion, which is his birthday. magsimba tayo ah? talk to him. ^_^

GOD BLESS US ALL!

im yours..

so yeah. its christmas vacation people! wee. and since its vacation, that means a lot of things. NO ALLOWANCE. NO SCHOOL DAYS (no seeing your crush/es), NO SOCIAL LIFE. lol.

but its okay. im not complaining at all. did you hear me complain? huh? huh? not at al!! lmao. XD

anyway, great news! not. I HAVE ALLERGIES! whoa. i thought it would be nice to post here a picture of myself looking like an alien, but good thing, ive changed my mind. haha. i look like pucca anyway. because the allregies cause my eyes to bulge or something, like i have been punch. lol. my brother said i look like a battered wife. haha. poor me. 

i just hope, this allergies will dissapear before december 24! NOCHE BUENA pa man din yun! 

i know im laughing at myself because of this, but i really dont want me looking like this! its not cute. not cute at all. haha.

ooh, anyway, i saw this acoustic cover of a little boy. he’s so freakin cute! he made my day! haha. here. watch him.. very adorkable. ^_^

that’s it! he is funny but CUTE! haha. ok i gotta go. byeeeeeeeee! ^_^

live your life.

let me share to you a story. i got it HERE.

it made me cry! i know im a crybaby, but it was really touching. 

On the last day before Christmas, I hurried to go to the supermarket to buy the remaining of the gift I didn’t manage to buy earlier. When I saw all the people there, I started to complain to myself,” It is going to take forever here and I still have so many other places to go.Christmas really is getting more and more annoying every year. How I wish I could just lie down, go to sleep and only wake up
after it…”

Nonetheless, I made my way to the toy section,and there I started to curse the prices, wondering if after all kids really play with such expensive toys.

While looking in the toy section, I noticed a smallboy of about 5 years old, pressing a doll against his chest. He kept on touching the hair of the doll and looked so sad. I wondered who was this doll for. Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him, “Granny, are you sure I don’t have enough money?”

The old lady replied, “You know that you don’t haveenough money to buy this doll, my dear.” Then she asked him to stay here for 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly.

The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.

Finally, I started to walk toward him and I asked him who did he want to give this doll to. “It is the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for this Christmas. She was so sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.”

I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus will bring itto her, after all, and not to worry.

But he replied to me sadly. “No, Santa Claus can not bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mother so that she can give it to her when she goes there.” His eyes were so sad while saying this. “My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mummy will also go to see God very soon, so I thought that she could bring the doll with her to give it to my sister.”

My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said, “I told daddy to tell mummy not to go yet. I asked him to wait until I come back from the supermarket.”

Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me, “I also want mummy to take this photo with her so that she will not forget me.” I love my mummy and I wish she doesn’t have to leave me but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.”

Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly. I quickly reached for my wallet and took a few notes and said to the boy, “What if we checked again, just in case if you haveenough money?” “Ok,” he said. “I hope that I have enough.”

I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll, and even some spare money. The little boy said, “Thank you God for giving me enough money.”

Then he looked at me and added, “I asked yesterday before I slept for Godto make sure I have enough money to buy this doll so that mummy can give it to my sister. He heard me.” “I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mummy, but I didn’t dare to ask God too much.But He gave me enough to buy the doll and the whiterose.”

“You know, my mummy loves white rose.”

A few minutes later, the old lady came again and I left with my trolley. I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn’t get the little boy out of my mind.

Then I remembered a local newspaper article 2 days ago, whichmentioned of a drunk man in a truck who hit a carwhere there was one young lady and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-assisting machine, because the young lady would not be able to get out of the coma. Was this the family of the little boy? Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young lady had passed away. I couldn’t stop myself and went to buy a bunch of white roses and I went to the mortuary where the body of the young woman was exposed for people tosee and make last wish before burial.

She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest.

I left the place crying, feeling that my life had been changed forever. The love that this little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to that day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk man had taken all this away from him.  

 i hope you learn something.

GOODNIGHT!

maybe, just maybe, it was just a dream.

he was sitting there at the corner. i was fooling around, being immature and childish, when suddenly, unintenionally, i glance in his direction, and that’s when i saw him looking at me. he’s look sent shivers in my body, its like he is seeing right through me, right through my soul. 

i look away when i felt something between us, is that what they call spark? i’ve never felt like that before.

but right at that moment, suddenly, i realized, that surprisingly, and unexpectedly, i already met my prince.

maybe this really happened, maybe it didn’t. either way, i know and believe that my prince exist.

PS. its christmas vacation people! wee. ^_^

i almost survived prelims.

whoa. its been almost a week? hehe. oh well, our prelims is still not done, we still have our last exam in geosol tomorrow. and im hoping, wishing, and praying, that i’ll be able to pass it! please please please? haha.

its saturday today, december 19th of 2009, the 4th day of “simbang gabi”. never in my life that i was able to complete the 9 days of mass, because there would be times, that i was lazy to attend, or because of a valid reason, such as that my class ends at 9pm, and the mass in here starts at 7pm. and i would really want to complete it someday, not just because of the so called “wish”, but because its a must do before i die. haha.

of course, you would say, i should just attend the early mass, the 4:30am mass, well, its too early! and i will just be too exhausted and sleepy to concentrate. i know, what you would say, REASONS REASONS REASONS. 

i know, even me can’t bear with my self. lol.

okay i’ll make kwento na the real happenings for today. 

actually today, i attended the early mass, because my exam starts at 10am and so i would really have to wake up early to review. so me and tep, rose, and gg decided to attend the mass, then review aferwards. so there i woke up at 3:30am, even though i was still sleepy because i slept at 1am. arrive at our meeting place at 4:15, so sad to say, there wasn’t a seat anymore when we arrive, and so we had to stand the whole time.

during and after the mass, there was an embarassing thing that happened, that i’ll just not tell bec. its embarassing! haha.

so there, after that, we bought breakfast, and started reviewing. 

our exam today, is ALGEBRA2 and GENCHEM2. and boy, was it hard! as in, super! 

my mind was bleeding the whole time! lol. especially in chem2! T__T because our prof in chem2 is so genius that she’s such a write-read! as in write in the board the problem, then reads it. she doesnt even explain how the hell did that equation was gotten! holy cow, its makin me mad! grrrrrrr. >_<

so after exams, i already decided to go home, even though i still want to stay with my friends, i was already too sleepy and tired to stay anymore. my eyes are already closing already, when i was on the jeep on the way home. hehe. 

anyway, i’ll just make a list, because i still want to tell tons of things!

THINGS THAT MADE ME HAPPY THIS WEEK:

 * goofing around with my friends.

 

* laughing with them over silly things! ^_^

* seeing ‘encyclopidia’ (oh, please dont misudnerstand! he really does make me laugh out loud! haha)

* sitting in the bench beside our new church watching the stars.. with my friends. (t’was very nice there ^_^) 

* watching PBB! (go melason! haha. ^_^) (i will blog about their v v cute love story after prelims ^_^)

* myu cousin gave me chocolates. haha.

* mariel went in our school to see me! aww. i miss her. 

* finally, attending the early mass

* seeing the sunrise on my way home after the mass

* walking on my own, while everyone is still asleep

* seeing HIM ♥_♥

(actually, i am now a fan of pon and zi! they are too kawaii. hehe ^_^)  

*  HIM

(isnt the last two kinda the same? lol)

THINGS THAT MADE ME SAD/MAD/DISSAPOINTED

* my ID got confiscated

* i tried to get it to the security office before it reach OSSA, but i was too late! 

(and so i’ll start my 2010 being there in OSSA, getting lectured by Mrs. Liza.. tama ba? grr >_<)

*  CHEMISTRY 2 ITSELF! and our TEACHER of course. >_<

* not having enough sleep.

* not having enough money to buy gifts for all the people i care about. T_T

* not reviewing well in chem2! huhu.

* being ME.

yes, for a moment, i was sad to be me. haiz. i know, nothing is fair. life isn’t fair not just on me, but to everyone else, existing here in our not so nice world, but i was really sad and mad, that everyone else handles that fact well, but sometimes i can’t.

aw. this post was not supposed to be sad because on the bright side, christmas vacation is almost there, and that fact should make me happy, right? i'’ll just have to try harder on midterms and finals. ^_^

ANYWAY, i just want to recognize my college friendships who are also reading my blog secretly. haha.

ROSELYN - for patiently readin my all my posts. lol. ,

TEP - for discovering thi secret blog, then telling it to everyone else! whoa. haha. 

ICA - for liking ‘my prince charming’ post’ ^_^

and to GG - for posting the name wayne in the message box! lol.

IM SORRY ABOUT THE LONG POST! HAHA. please leave a comment! thank you so much! ^_^

PS. sorry for the unrep and unreturn visit, message, link-exs, comments! promise i will tomorrow! i really have to review now. please understand. thnsk. ^_^ 

christmas is coming! and so is PRELIMS! … >_<

so, there, PRELIMS IS COMING. soo, I will be on HIATUS FOR A WEEK!

our prelims will start on TUESDAY.and so I would really have to do my best to study! I would have to forget my online life, FOR A WEEK, so that I’ll get high grades. I have to do this, and so I hope that my friend, naming LAZY, will leave me alone first. please? lmao. XD

here’s my schedule..

that’s my uber harsh schedule for next week! its so hassle, right? wth do we have class until SUNDAY??? as in december 20?!! its makin me mad. >_<

anyway, I just really have to accept this unfortunate life of mine. I chose this I know.

oh well, GOODLUCK ANGELIANS! especially, FUTURE ENGINEERS! cheers to us! ^__^

i dunno why im posting now.. ♥__♥

today is one of the most tiring day in my whole existance. (OA MUCH? lol!) no, really, I am really v v v v v tired today! 

its our NSTP today, but just the nstp lecture, not the community immersion (that was last meeting..) but then again, nstp is nstp, which mean it’s still EARLY. as in 8AM early. (I know, for some, its not that early anymore, but please understand me, I am an evening student my dears.. Ü)

so there, I woke up at 6am, then got in school at 7:30. (at least, I’m, beggining to change, and erase tardiness in my system now.. Im improving, I know.. XD)

we started our class at 8am, then got dismiss at 11. (wee!) ate lunch in kfc, then headed back in school, because we have to practice our dance in PE for our prelims. BUT..

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awwwww. I am so tired already, I’m sorry I can’t post the whole story. since I’m about to get knock out for like 10 seconds or less. lol.

basta! I HAD FUN! though I am v v v v v v v tired. still, I enjoyed my day, with my silly, goofy, but lovable friends. 

THAT WAS IT. I’m sorry if I wasted your time, for reading this. still! its appreciated, from the bottom of my beating heart. ♥♥♥♥♥

GOONIGHT! SWEETSLEEP! -__-

 I think I’ve discovered the secret of life - you just hang around until you get used to it.
- Charles M. Schulz

this is my life anyway..

its funny how easily we ge attached to someone we’ve known for just weeks. Its even funnier to feel HURT when that someone starts to value you LESS than he used to. and you can’t even complain about it because you are just ATTACHED, not COMMITED.

GOODNIGHT BLOGGERS! 

PS. my emote is not true! lol. just wanna be emo before I got to sleep! haha. Ü

and hell yeah, i am weird. 

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

okay. I know I’ve written already that I just wish for TRUE HAPPINESS this christmas. but hey, can’t I have other wish? they’re just wish anyway.. its free to dream and hope right??? *smile*

sooo, by writing here, i wish Santa could see it! lol. am i too old to actually believe that Santa exist? haha. im not! right? ^..^

so here it goes..

MY CHRISTMAS WISHLIST! (drumroll here.. XD)

1. NOKIA N97! 

 - i just love it! it looks so adorable and cute! haha. i want it bad. >_< click here to see what it looks like, since im not good in disribing things. lol.

2. DVD PORTABLE

 - i know, i can watch here in my pc and in our dvd. but a dvd portable would be a lot nicer! (now is the time to nod and agree with me ^_^) i mean, i am really an addict in watching movies, especially koreans, japanese, taiwanese dramas! there would be time, i would stay over night till dawn, just to finish them. 

3. anything SPONGEBOB

 - im a certified spongebob addict! he is my husband. (even though there’s a rumor that spongebob is gay! now.. is that true? haha ♥_♥) so, anthing spongebob would be nice, a shirt, cap, slippers, stuff toy, hanky, anything would be loved. (even just spongebob comments here. ^_^)i would appreciate them a lot.

4.  BIGBANG ALBUM

 - ok. so this is much hard to find, since i already look at cd stores, and found nothing! awwww. >_<

5. PARAMORE CONCERT TICKETS!

 - okay. so this is a lot impossible, since i’ve heard that they are already sold out? *SAYANG TALAGA* oh well, its not as if im really planning to go. the tickets are expensive! and its impossible for me to go too..

6.  LAPTOP

 - i like to have my own pc! haha. because i’m tired of sharingthis pc to my brothers. lol ^_^

7. DARK CHOCOLATES

 - this is the cheapest. haha. i love chocolates! anything chocolate would be nice actually. ^_^

so far, that’s all that i can think. i might edit it.. so there. haha. this wish is all material things that money can buy! and the thing that i wish that money CAN”T buy are …

 * HAPPINESS FOR ALL THE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD.

 * GOOD HEALTH FOR MY LOVE ONES.

 * JUSTICE FOR THE VICTIMS IN THE MAGUINDANAO MASSACRE

 * and HUGS (from me) and a HAPPY CHRISTMAS FOR ALL MY VIRTUAL FRIENDS HERE IN BLOGOSPHERE! ^_^

that is all that I want!

16 days before christmas dear! 

DO YOU FEEL ALIVE?

hello bloggers. I’ve decided to post now, because my dear friend, naming MR. SLEEP left my soul and whole system. lol. its already 1:14 am my cp clock tells..  and that meant..

ORAS NA! 

anyway.. ok lang dahil wala naman pasok bukas kase Angeles Foundation Day, pero may practice ako sa PE for prelims! PERO!!! okay lang yun dahil wala din namang pasok sa wednesday, dahil opening ng napakalaki naming simbahan sa school na mukhang spaceship, sabi nga ng prof ko sa logic, kaya daw alang pasok kase susubukang paliparin yung chapel. hahahaha. pero infairness, maganda talaga yung chapel namen, colorful! yung cross sa taas, eh parang christmas lights na, nag iiba iba ng colors! tapos sa may labas eh parang forest! haha. tapos sa may likod (sabi lang ni GG!) may iba-ibang colors na umiilaw, para ka daw nasa club! haha. adik. pero isa pang infairness! darating si PGMA kaya ayun, sakanya na diaper. lol. kidding! ^_^

ok, as I said, may practice kami tomorrow for prelims in PE. at sobrang nakakatamad mag practice lalu na e wala akong crush na gugustuhin kong makita. hindi ba?? SUPER NAKAKATAMAD YUNG GANUN???!  wala man lang inspiration sa school, at meron man, isusuko ko na din naman siya, dahil tanggap ko na ang katotohanang NUNO siya. at kahit kailan hindi na siya magiging HIGANTE para maging ka level ko siya. hahaha.

okay fine, I get it, I know Im not making sense here or whatever, but I dont care! this is my blog. haha. and I will write here whatever I wanted to say, or express, or feeling! because I am such a random person! Im v v v weird. I get that! you dont need to spit it on my face! LMAO.

Im out of my mind dear. can you ever forgive me if I decided to publish this? promise I’ll be normal on my next blog! hahaha.

Im outta here. GOODNIGHT! Ü 

candles — hey monday!

I love this song! because someone dedicated it to me. lol. but seriously, I love it. ^_^  (casadee is an amazing singer)

CANDLES - hey monday

all I want for christmas is you!

there’s really no denying that CHRISTMAS IS NEAR. the cold wind that wakes us up every morning, and sends us to sleep every night. the bibingka and puto vendors at night. the beautiful lanterns lit up every night. the goodness in everyone’s hearts. ♥

its all signs of christmas. 

christmas. I always thought of it as a special day, because I would be receiving a lot of money from my ninangs and ninongs, but as I grow old, things change. I still see it as a very special day, but I dont see christmas as receiving-money-day anymore. (that was just childish thoughts!)

its a day of giving, of love, of friendship, of family, of our lord Jesus Christ. 

now, every christmas, my wish would just be happiness for all the people, especially to those I love so dear in my heart.

I wish that despite everything that’s been happening now, all the crisis, problems, massacres, misunderstandings… just for this day, we’ll have peace in our minds, and we’ll experience what TRUE HAPPINESS mean. just for this day. please.

just for this day, can we stop fighting each other and learn to forgive?

just for this day, can’t we think of anything other than how to win on the elections?

just this day, can we stop stressing about our unrequited love, and spend time on our family and friends instead?

just for this day, can we atleast treat each other as brothers and sisters? like what were really supposed to be?

just for this day, can we give and share our love to others?

just for this day, please be a blessing to others..

please. just for this day.

I know, we can never take back all the innocent lives in the maguindanao massacre. and I’m really sad about that. but for this day, please be happy, though you can’t really be, because you’ve lost someone forever, but please be happy. JUST FOR THIS DAY. please.

happy endings are sometimes true. never stop believing. have faith. 

BE HAPPY Ü