dreams–are they real?

last night i’ve dreamt about HIM. not him “him”. but HIM. alright i’ll say the name.. GM.

he is my former piolo-look-alike crush. i dont know why, i dont know how, but last night he visited me in my dreams. and unconciously visited my mind for the whole day.

my dream is like this.. its haloween, and they made our school a horror house, so me and justin are there to take a look inside our engineering building. i was in the main entrance when i notice that justine didnt come with me inside, i saw him walking away.. so i shouted “JA! natatakot ako! wag moko iwan!”, but he didnt hear me, so i decided not to go inside and just follow him when suddenly someone pull me, and i saw that it was GM. he said.. “let’s go”, i said “i’m scared”, he said “no, its ok, let’s go”.. so i said, “ok, but dont let me go” so he held my both hands, and we enter the building.. then i WOKE UP.

i know this is not right, but i really did wish that i didnt wake up. that, that dream was just real. it’s not right because i already have someone in my life now, who is basically texting right now and telling me not to sleep early because he will call me later. but I DONT KNOW. GM keep coming into my mind. my freaky mind.

actually this is the 3rd time i’ve dreamt of GM. but the first two are not like this. they are always about him having someone already, so i always wake up, feeling sad. but this is different. and i want to punch my self for feeling this way.

they say, when you dream about someone, it means that someone is thinking of you. or maybe you are thinking of that someone before you sleep. now now, is that real??? because i swear im not thinking about him last night. i was too tired and sleepy to think of anything at all. so WHY???? this is sooooo confusing. i abhor myself a lot. huhu.