CONFUSED

September 12, 2009

 

there are lot of things going on in my mind right now. lot’s of questions, lot’s of unsure answers. lot’s of random thoughts.

(btw, is “LOT’S” wrong in grammar? so unsure. ahe)

WHY ARE WE LIVING? WHY ARE WE CREATED?  why do we need to live just to get hurt? to suffer? to SUCK at everything??

WHY IS LIFE FREAKING IRONIC??

laughter becomes tears. happiness turns to sadness. love turns to hate. white becomes black. sweet becomes bitter. truths turns to lies. up becomes down. living turns to dying.

FREAK!!! FREAK! stop the drama lol

echos lang!!! mag eemo sana ako. kaso wag na. di ko bagay. im such a jolly person, like yeah, so jolly. jollibee haha. Ü 

napapa emo lang naman ako kase ME AND HIM are LQ again. he’s so unresonable.

he gets mad, without even asking me the truth! he’s like yeah duh. watevs. dont want to talk about it anymore! nakakawrinkles siya. nakaka wrinkles lahat ng lalake sa mundo. they’re so dumb and immature. EXCLUDING MY DAD, but you can include my silly brothers. they’re jerks grr.

 ok. enough of the silly dramas. i’ll just tell how’s my day. even though its just freaky boring. i’ll still tell because this is my blog! haha. its our nstp today because its SATURDAY. (my favorite day BC (before college) because when in highschool, there’s no class every weekends. but its diff. now )

 so there,reporting namin today. 2nd to the last yung group namin, nung kami na, may props pa kaming baloons, nasa loob yung keywords. kaya dapat i darts ng representative bawat group. so ayun, naging ok naman yung reporting, medyo awkward nga lang ng onte for me kase di talaga ako marunong mag report hehe. tapos kase anjan si J. tsaka si GM na din. 

PS: classmate ko si J. crush ko siya before, PHYSICALLY lang. kase sama ng ugali niya. napakahangin, mahangin pa sa tsunami. kaya TO agad. kaso nga lang, everytime i look at him, he’s very CUTE. he has an angel face with a devil personality. rawr XD

PPS. i already wrote before na di ko na crush si GM, kaso ewan ko nga ba, bat tingin siya ng tingin saken. so kainis. gusto ko tuloy magkanta ng “muling ibalik ang tamis ng pag ibig”.. hehe. joke XD

after ng reporting, exam na ng midterm. di ako syado nakapagreview kase tinamad talaga ako, kaya dinaan ko nalang sa essay. hinabaan ko ng bonggang bongga para atleast, yun man lang ma perfect ko haha. Ü after mag exam pwede na umuwi, pero dahil gagawin pa namin nina ja at tep yung IP namen sa chemistry, nagshopping muna kame ng mirienda sa mall. tapos pumunta kami samen, kasama si ate rosas. kahit di namin siya ka group, syempre dapat sa chromosomes, lang iwanan! kaya ayun sumama siya. ung IP namin is making milk soap. tinulungan kami ng mama ko, so sana maging ok na, kase yung first try namin last wee, palpak ehh.

nung tapos na namin gawin, nag soundtrip muna kame, nagpapatugtog ako ng mga SENTI SONGS dedicated to tep. torn between two lovers kase ang drama niya now. ganito kase yun, si FIRST GUY AND SECOND GUY at SIYA. si first guy, matagal na siyang crush ni tep, first day of school pa.. kaso before,may iba pang gusto si first guy, kaya hanggang friends lang sila ni tep, so ayun, bigla dumating si second guy.. umamin kay tep, nanligaw, naging sila.. SILA NGAYON. tapos bigla eeksena nanaman tong si first guy, para guluhin si tep at amining may gusto ito sakanya.. si tep naman, sabi samen, naguguluhan daw siya kase mas masaya at mas gusto niya si first guy. its so kaloka. kawawa naman itong friendship ko, pero advice ko naman sakanya “follow your heart, whoever you chose, whatever you decide, di pwedeng walang masaktan.. kaya kung makakasakit at masasaktan ka na lang din, piliin mo na yung gusto talaga ng puso mo, yung ika nga e worth the pain” .. sounds cheesy, BUT TRUE. right?

 

haba na ata ng post ko?? feeling ko.. haba na. kaya tama na. haha. SWEETNIGHT CHUMS!

 

 

avoiding something doesnt always mean that you hate it.. it could also mean that you WANT IT, but you just know that it isnt right ..

 

 – this is for TEP. haha. i break mo na kase! haha. joke XD

when you ignore someone, it could only mean TWO THINGS, either you hate that person so much or you are too scared to fall in love with that person..

 

 – eto naman para saken BEFORE. nung crushy crush ko pa si GM. nung crush ko pa kase siya, lagi ko din siyang nahuhuling nakatingin saken, yung pag titingnan ko na siya, nakatingin na siya! eee. i remember those stares. i used to have butterflies in my stomach everytime that happens. pero, at that time, parang iniiwasan niya din ako.. so para sakanya talaga tong quote na to. i used to ask myself.. “does he HATE ME that much??? kaya niya ako iniiwasan?”.. and if its the SECOND REASON.. will it make a difference?? guess not.

pero sabi nga nila, past is soooo past. so wala na yun. and besides, may gf pala yun. more than a year na ata sila. PERO, last question, why is he still staring????? arghh.

LIFE IS FULL OF COMPLICATIONS. misunderstandings. and pain.

 

— i really need to end this post now, because my kitty cat is sleeping on my other arm. so i cant type fast. oh and yeah, my cat’s name is KIMI. he doesnt have a breed. puscal ika nga haha. napulot lang kse nung kuya ko, naawa kaya inuwi niya. ahe. but he’s very kawaii. he’s all white. with a little black on his head. so cuteeeee XD

 

 

okidoki, gtg KISS!