i’ll never tell him how much he made me cry that day..

gaaah!! why cant i upload photos??? sucker. tsk.

i have a new favorite song now.. its entitled OUT OF MY LEAGUE by stephen speaks. i love it because i dedicate it to GM. i know. im pathetic. but whatevs. i love it..

it’s his hair and his eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i’m falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as he thoughtfully thumbs through his hair
and he purses her lips, bats his eyes as he plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say

i cant find the offiicial music video so i’ll just post a mv of the notebook, which is my favorite movie and book.. hope you like it too.

 * the notebook is written by Nicholas Sparks. the book is amazing. its a story about TRUE LOVE. that whatever problems, obstacles or hindrances there is, their LOVE will surpass it all. even if it means waking up, and knowing your love one doesnt remember you, but because you love her, you’ll read your love story to her, so by the end of the day, she remembers.. but tomorrow when you wake up again, she doesnt remember a thing again so you’ll read and make her remember again.. that’s what Noah did for Allie. that’s TRUE LOVE.

im inlike.?

i often wonder if life is easier for other people..

morning philippines. morning world. 28 ngayon. monthsary ng CLIPAYB. 1 year & 7 months na kame. congratulations!!

even though we have our different lives right now. i still believe our friendship will never ever end. at ano naman ngayon kung wala tayong pictures kase di tayo laging complete?? we have memories. and that i’ll treasure forever. love you girls. kiss.

and yeah, first monthsary din pala ni star at ni tep. congrats! wag ka ng manlalaki tep. lol

sira yung i.ph kahapon, and the yesterday before.. kaya nagblog muna ako sa aking lumang blogsite. haha. dalawin niyo naman oh, kaka lagay ko lang ng cbox dun kahapon eh. lol. makikita niyo din dun na follower ako ni roadfill AKA moymoy palaboy. kakatawa mga blogs niya. promise

and yeah andun yung blog ko about kay FUCKING ONDOY. tinatamd na kong ulitin pa dito. haha.

PLS VISIT?? thanks much.

www.imdimwit.blogspot.com

ano na nga bang gusto kong sabhin??? oh yeah, my uncertainties about SPVM. and my growing illegal desire for GM. fuck. i hate myself a lot. why do i feel this way? why am i this way??? crap crap crap. i dont know which is worse, being the one with the brokenheart, or being the one who breaks a heart. this dilemma is giving me a headache and a heartache. argh. if i will choose spvm, i will not be happy, and he will not be happy, cos im not his totally. its like being there, my body there, but my heart and mind is not. and if i’ll choose GM, i cant actually choose him because he has a gf and he doesnt know my hd to him. oh god. and i know, this sounds EMO, but its NOT EMO! its just what i feel. T_T

bakit nga ba nag eexist pa ang LOVE?? sana wala na lng boy-girl relationship. puro love frienship nalang. para di na maraming nag d-drama tulad ko. heks.

MY LIFE SUCKS. grr. sucker sucker sucker.

em em.. ??

hello. nag b-blog ako nagyon sa computer ng pinsan ko, binabantayan ko kase yung anak niya. hehe. cute nga nung pamangkin ko eh, name niya is PHOEBE. very kawaii

ayun. kwento ko lang yung kaganapan last night sa cea duets and optimus primus (dance contest).. saya saya. dami dami gwapo. super. may crush ako every performance dun sa dance contest. sa PICE, sa SAGE, sa IIEE, sa ACES.. pwera lang sa PSME, mukhang mga ewan yung mga mechanical engineers, parang mga siga lahat. lol. yung team ko pala dyan is SAGE. kase first year palang ako kaya Student Association of General Engineering palang organization ko. pero pag 3rd year nako, magkaka major nako which is Electronics and Communication. gusto ko kase magtrabaho sa mga networking, sa ABS-CBN siguro o kaya pwede din sa GLOBE OR SMART.

masaya mga performance nila kase mga nakakatawa lahat. hindi serious boring, basta super fun. sayang nga lang at nung 10 na pinapauwi nako ng mom ko kaya di ko napanuod yung last performer at di ko nalaman sino nanalo. pero promise.. umuulan talaga ng gwapo kagabe.

lalu na nung rumampa yung mga contestants ng MR & MS CEA. eeeeee. para akong adik dun, sigaw ako ng sigaw. nakisali pa tong si ica. kaugali ko pala siya kaya nagkasundo kame. pareho kaming laging naghahanap ng gwapo. hahaha. lande e no.

ang ayaw ko lang talaga kagabe e napansin ko puro tall, dark and handsome hinahanap ko.. which then i realized na ganun si GM. eee. kainis talaga. date, mapute at gwapo type ko, tapos ng dahil sakanya, nag iba taste ko???? kainis. di ko din pala siya nakita last night. busy siguro sa gf.  which is a good thing for me, kase para ma forget ko na siya diba.. :/

o siya nangungulit na tong pamangkin ko.. likot likot niya. super! hehe.

maya ulit. kiss.

——— ♥

em-em is the name of my pet in pet society. i name my pet EM-EM because of HIM. so damn pathetic. GM yung name niya kase, G is his last name, M is his first name. i name myself CEEDEE. because, like wise, C is my last, and D is my first. im so pathetic. i know. arghhhhh.

in my ♥ there always be a place for you for all my life ..

just got home from my tiring PE. wooshhh. 25 sit ups, push ups, jumping rope, and etc! god. i almost faint. and our finals will be… tada! 30 LIKE THAT again. :/ TSK.

ay may s-share pala ako kaya ako napa blog kahit ma le late na niyan ako.. CRUSH KO PA SI GM! eee. i know. so dimwit. so pathetic. but i can’t do anything! kase i like looking at him again! and what the heck, he’s looking at me too. kaya lalo akong nafo fall. hais. im so basted. he keeps popping out in to my mind again, ever since that freaky dream. grrr. nakakainis na buti pa siya naiisip ko, pero si spvm ndi ko.. gosh. im so dead. huhu.

oh well watevs, its the opening of engineering and architecture days today! wee! may parade kanina, nanuod ako.. ang bonnga! dahil halos lalake lahat ng nasa department namen, yung parade e gay parade! lahat ng higher years na guys e naka bistida, make up at wig! bonggang bongga. yung iba, maganda pa saken! di katanggap tanggap, di makatarungan! lol. andun din yung isa kong crush, itago natin sa pangalang reality, crush ko siya since last year pa. pero yung pagkacrush ko sakanya e onti lang, kumbaga e pangmalayong crush. ung kay GM, ou na, crush with HD. ee. im so bad.

but that’s life, bahala na.. basta ang alam ko lang, nakikita ko na SOMEDAY, when we are both pwedi na.. magiging kame! lol. ambisyosa. pero, no seriously, im wishing for that moment to happen. PUH-LEASE??

o siya maliligo nako at magsasaya pa ko maya! haha. may singing cea duets at dance contest! wee. Ü

scary haunted house in the morning :D

you see, they dont look creepy. ayaw kase ma upload nng mga nakakatakot talaga. ewan ko ba, tnotopak na naman tong pc namin. hehe. but i tell you, evern its morning, it fells creepy in there. the air is so kakaiba. malamig and nakakakilabot.

you see, i dont want to talk about it right now because its 1am already, and i’m the only one awake, and i feel kinda scared already.

so goodnight friends.

kiss! ♥

5 people you’ll meet in heaven.. Ü

 

i’ve just finished reading the five people you’ll meet in heaven by Mitch Albom who also wrote the tuesdays with morrie. the book was great. it’s one of my favorite book now. it tells the importance of every people, every place, every moments and every memories in our life. i wish it has a movie. it would be very nice. and i’ll definitely watch it!!

… each affects the other and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one. Ü

my favorite part there was his encounter with the first, third and last person that he met in heaven. beacuse those people are not really close to eddie, until he met them in heaven and realize their significance, and their role in life of eddie when they are still alive. and that’s what has made the story wonderful for me, that those 5 special people we’ll meet in heaven are not really the people we’ve known when we were alive rather just strangers that have touch our lives.

.. strangers are family you have yet to know.

this story tells us that in our life, we touch lives, and some touch ours too, we may never know it until the right time comes, and they are there to explain it to us. how someone died for us to live, how we sacrifice in order to have a better life, how we have to give up things, sometimes even the most important thing, just for the better, and how sometimes, we have to hurt others just to save them from themselves.

.. sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you’re not really losing it. you are just passing it on to someone else.

oh. oh. i jst found out that the book had been a tv program. i still dont know if its already done or something. so im gonna find out now! hehe.

you have to read it!! its mandatory. lol Ü

:)

dont forget..

i met up with my highschool bff’s kanina. great times. i miss them a lot.. they say you will find true friends when you are in college, but for me, i already found my TRUE FRIENDS in highschool. 

and we will be friends forever.

saya saya kanina, kahit nasa mall lang nagkwentuhan about sa kanya kanya na naming buhay sa ngayon.. i will admit masaya ako sa life ko sa college, at mahal ko course ko at classmates, pero iba pa din SILA. iba yung KAME eh. mas masya. mas magulo. mas malande. hehe.

sabi nga ni yel kanina, nagun lang ulit siya nakatawa ng sobra sobra. kase yung mga friends niya now, di ganun kaalog at yung kasama niya lang sila for the sake na may kasama siya. kaya miss na miss niya kame. miss na miss ko sila.

tapos si tinn naman (mama mamahan k nung HS) umiyak pa kas kwento niya na cool off sila ni boyfriend niya. buset talaga mga lalake no?? no?? apir! haha.

ayun, tinatamad nako magkwento, antok na kase ako at pagod. sooooo NIGHT! sweetdreams  

a friend is someone who knows your song and sings it to you when you have forgotten it.. friends are those who are not fooled by mistakes you made or dark images you hold about yourself.. they remember your beauty when you feel ugly; your wholeness when you feel broken; and your innocence when you feel guilty.

dreams–are they real?

last night i’ve dreamt about HIM. not him “him”. but HIM. alright i’ll say the name.. GM.

he is my former piolo-look-alike crush. i dont know why, i dont know how, but last night he visited me in my dreams. and unconciously visited my mind for the whole day.

my dream is like this.. its haloween, and they made our school a horror house, so me and justin are there to take a look inside our engineering building. i was in the main entrance when i notice that justine didnt come with me inside, i saw him walking away.. so i shouted “JA! natatakot ako! wag moko iwan!”, but he didnt hear me, so i decided not to go inside and just follow him when suddenly someone pull me, and i saw that it was GM. he said.. “let’s go”, i said “i’m scared”, he said “no, its ok, let’s go”.. so i said, “ok, but dont let me go” so he held my both hands, and we enter the building.. then i WOKE UP.

i know this is not right, but i really did wish that i didnt wake up. that, that dream was just real. it’s not right because i already have someone in my life now, who is basically texting right now and telling me not to sleep early because he will call me later. but I DONT KNOW. GM keep coming into my mind. my freaky mind.

actually this is the 3rd time i’ve dreamt of GM. but the first two are not like this. they are always about him having someone already, so i always wake up, feeling sad. but this is different. and i want to punch my self for feeling this way.

they say, when you dream about someone, it means that someone is thinking of you. or maybe you are thinking of that someone before you sleep. now now, is that real??? because i swear im not thinking about him last night. i was too tired and sleepy to think of anything at all. so WHY???? this is sooooo confusing. i abhor myself a lot. huhu.

in our life

everything happens for a reason. and we are what we are because of a reason.

some people chose to be..

.. POLITICIANS, because they want our country to be better.

.. RELIGIOUS PEEPS, because they find peace and love with God.

.. TALENTS/ARTISTS, because through their special talent, they can inspire and make people happy.

.. EDUCATORS, because they want to create the next generations.

.. BUILDERS (engineers! woo! ), because they like to give shelter and paths to the people.

.. HEALERS, because they want to save lives.

but others choose the other way..

THIEVES, because they’ll do anything just to give food to ther family.

KILLERS, because of their HUGE loath for someone.

RAPISTS, because of their unrequited love that they chose to commit illegal lust.

but despite of whoever we are.., i still believe that everyone has a good heart. deep inside us, there’s something good in there. that’s the reason we have a HEART. not just to pump blood, but for us to L O V E ..

love is the root of all emotions.. we get hurt because we love. we suffer because we love. we HATE because we love.. 

BUT STILL, we’re happy because we love. we become stronger because we love. we learn to forgive because we love. we learn to take care of someone other than ourself because we love. we get “kilig” moments because we love. and most of all we feel complete because we love.

i wrote this realization because yesterday morning, on my way to school, i saw “kolsenter”, the crazy streetlady. people call her call center because everyday, it seems like she’s talkin to someone on the phone. i usually felt scared whenever i see her, not just her, but all her kind, you know the streetpeople who are not in their right state of mind.. but despite that fear, i also symphatize them and someimes even think “why did he/she became like that??? WHY?”..

i remembered watching MMK, yung si angel ang bida. in there, she became an insane street lady because of too much pressure and because of poverty. we are just humans, we have limitations on everything, and people like her, maybe, they had reach their limitations already. and being crazy, means not minding anymore, not caring anymore. they’re NUMB already. they are in prison of their own self, their own mind.

LIFE IS INDEED HARSH. but for whoever’s reading this, i hope you realize how lucky you are that you have a pc to open and read this blog, unlike other people like “kolsenter” who was and will be forever broken and lost.

mapagtripan lang sa FS :D

what the heck

LEO 

Fanciful ideas and romantic wishes have been blooming inside your head. They’re all so pretty, and it’s a waste that no one sees them but you. The time is right to share them with a person who loves you the most: They really want to know more about what makes you tick, and they can tell you’ve been working on something in your mind. Give them a glimpse of what you’re thinking, because their reaction will delight you — and bring you closer together.

this is my freaky horoscope for today. and its hair raisingly TRUE. hakhak. maybe i should do it. maybe i shouldnt??? should i? or should i not??? arggghh. although im not yet sure if HE love s me the most hehe. though he said so. but boys, they’re immature creatures who changes mind every now and then,pretty much like girls, like us. lol

 anyway, i just got home from my PE. so so tiring. at dumagdag pa si manong araw na kung makasinag e parang wala ng bukas! grabe naman kainit. parang nasa loob ka ng oven toaster. SANA UMULAN! puh lease??? wink wink

anyway ULET. malele-late na nyan ako. kaya maliligo na ako! haha. later!

 CEA DAYS NA NEXT WEE! wee! WEE! lol

—- ♥

pinapatanong ng nanay ko kung ABS-CBN ka ba??? gusto ka kase naming maging kapamilya eh.

CHEESY! Ü

F*CK

i am super sad today. i just saw my midterms grade. and they are freakin LOW. its super upsetting huhuhu.

i really have to work hard for my grades to improve on finals! kase i have to be an engineer. I HAVE TO.

life is so harsh. when i finally find my purpose in life. my DREAM. it will tell me i will have to have it the HARD WAY. as in like the song of avril runaway .. “life is so hard, it hurts like hell..”

may nagtxt nga ng joke sakin eh..

eksena sa langit

PEDRO: anong course mo ng nabubuhay kapa?

STUDENT: engineering po.

PEDRO: cge sa langit ka.. masyado ka nang naghirap

la lang. kakatawa. pero masakit na nakakatawa. kase totoo. hehe. pero sabi nga nila, wala naman daw course ang hindi mahirap diba?? lahat may hirap. ganyan ang college. masaya, mahirap, malungkot, masarap, nakakakilig, nakakatawa, nakakaiyak, nakaka-excite. at ang wish ko lang eh, sana. SANA TALAGA. makagraduate ako! TAYO! para masaya diba??

———— ♥

im super confused too last night. c J kase. sarap niyang titigan. hehe. tapos nagbiruan pa kame nung pauwi nakame. eeeee. KASALANAN BANG MAGKA CRUSH PAG MAY KA M.U KA NA???? hindi naman diba?? because we are just humans. and its very normal for us to have CRUSH/ES. right?? pwera nalang siguro kung may pagnanasa ka na dun sa crush mo, and i will admit na date meron akong HD sakanya, pero now wala na.. promise man. haha.

pero bakit na g-guilty pa din ako??? grrrrrrrr

ifyouaskmeifilovehim,idlie:|

new moon!

it has more details. and i do think its a spoiler to the movie. BUT WATEVS! its still cool  

and my advice to twilight saga fans! READ THE BOOKS FIRST! they are much better than the movie, except the fact that taylor and robert pattinson exist in the movie.. but still, i hate those who thinks that they know everything they have to know bout the twilight because they saw the movie! i mean.. DUH. lol

you can go on with your life without any interference from me, it will be as if i never existed..

 - edward cullen

abandon hospital :D

morning sunshine! its so early.. la magawa. kaya magbabalog nalang ako..

(actually marami ako ginagawa, kunware wala lang haha )

mag se share lang naman ako ng quote eh. nabasa ko sa isa pang blog, pero may iniba naman ako at dinagdag, kaya sana wag magalit kung sakaling makita niya ito o mabasa haha Ü

ITS OKAY ..

.. if the girl/guy you have a crush on turns out to be a relative, there are lot of fishes on the ocean!

.. if the one you love doenst love you back, atleast you know how to give love.

.. if your bf/gf cheated on you, it means your not meant to be, and you have the time to find the right one for you.

.. if you still love your ex, tell him/her now because maybe he/she still loves you too.

.. if you seem to own all the problems in the world, they will all pass soon.

.. if you only found out your true dream when your in your last year in college, you can always achieve them after school.

.. if your whole world seems dark, you will find the light in the right time.

.. if you dont have a complete family, whoever’s taking care of you is giving all his/her best to give you a happy and comfortable life.

.. if no one seems to like you, God will always love you.

.. if you had commit a bad thing, we are just human after all.

.. if your not physically attractive, its what inside that counts.

.. if you feel like giving up, we all have our limitations, but DONT, you’ll find your answers soon.

.. if someone you love left you forever, wherever she/he is, she/he is happy now.

.. if you dont have a lot of friends, because REAL one’s are more than enough.

.. if its raining, it actually means there will be a rainbow after.

those are the things i’ve thought so far. la nako maisip ehh. ahe.

so bye na. mamalantsa pa akong uniform ko.

kiss!

——————————————– Ü

and yeah, about my freaky title.. nag punta kase kame sa abandon hospital last night! mga 11pm ng gabi yun.. nothing happened naman talaga eh. di kase kame bumaba sa car at nagtagal. tita ko kase, takot na takot ba naman wala pa man. hehe. pero sikat yung abandon hospital na yun, madami ng nakakita dun ng spirits, and last night kahit di ako bumaba, you can really feel na pagpasok palang dun sa parang spooky forest eh mag iiba na yung aura. very very scary, i tell you. i beleive na may spirits, or ghosts, whatever we call them, na nageexist here with us, BAD and GOOD, and the only thing i was scared last night is the fact that what if there’s a BAD spiriit that will follow us and will put us in danger??? yun lang talaga, kaya i prayed talaga para di kami mapahamak, so there, okay naman kame.  

 pero sayang talaga di kami bumaba at pumasok ng saglit, next time nalang daw sabi ng insan ko, bawal na sumama yung matatakutin! di ko naman talaga gusto makakita eh, takot din kaya ako.. its the EXPIRIENCED i wanted. yun yun eh Ü 

and i’ll post a picture of the abandon hosp. next time we go there!

nothing is impossible, if you just believe..

CONFUSED

there are lot of things going on in my mind right now. lot’s of questions, lot’s of unsure answers. lot’s of random thoughts.

(btw, is “LOT’S” wrong in grammar? so unsure. ahe)

WHY ARE WE LIVING? WHY ARE WE CREATED?  why do we need to live just to get hurt? to suffer? to SUCK at everything??

WHY IS LIFE FREAKING IRONIC??

laughter becomes tears. happiness turns to sadness. love turns to hate. white becomes black. sweet becomes bitter. truths turns to lies. up becomes down. living turns to dying.

FREAK!!! FREAK! stop the drama lol

echos lang!!! mag eemo sana ako. kaso wag na. di ko bagay. im such a jolly person, like yeah, so jolly. jollibee haha. Ü 

napapa emo lang naman ako kase ME AND HIM are LQ again. he’s so unresonable.

he gets mad, without even asking me the truth! he’s like yeah duh. watevs. dont want to talk about it anymore! nakakawrinkles siya. nakaka wrinkles lahat ng lalake sa mundo. they’re so dumb and immature. EXCLUDING MY DAD, but you can include my silly brothers. they’re jerks grr.

 ok. enough of the silly dramas. i’ll just tell how’s my day. even though its just freaky boring. i’ll still tell because this is my blog! haha. its our nstp today because its SATURDAY. (my favorite day BC (before college) because when in highschool, there’s no class every weekends. but its diff. now )

 so there,reporting namin today. 2nd to the last yung group namin, nung kami na, may props pa kaming baloons, nasa loob yung keywords. kaya dapat i darts ng representative bawat group. so ayun, naging ok naman yung reporting, medyo awkward nga lang ng onte for me kase di talaga ako marunong mag report hehe. tapos kase anjan si J. tsaka si GM na din. 

PS: classmate ko si J. crush ko siya before, PHYSICALLY lang. kase sama ng ugali niya. napakahangin, mahangin pa sa tsunami. kaya TO agad. kaso nga lang, everytime i look at him, he’s very CUTE. he has an angel face with a devil personality. rawr XD

PPS. i already wrote before na di ko na crush si GM, kaso ewan ko nga ba, bat tingin siya ng tingin saken. so kainis. gusto ko tuloy magkanta ng “muling ibalik ang tamis ng pag ibig”.. hehe. joke XD

after ng reporting, exam na ng midterm. di ako syado nakapagreview kase tinamad talaga ako, kaya dinaan ko nalang sa essay. hinabaan ko ng bonggang bongga para atleast, yun man lang ma perfect ko haha. Ü after mag exam pwede na umuwi, pero dahil gagawin pa namin nina ja at tep yung IP namen sa chemistry, nagshopping muna kame ng mirienda sa mall. tapos pumunta kami samen, kasama si ate rosas. kahit di namin siya ka group, syempre dapat sa chromosomes, lang iwanan! kaya ayun sumama siya. ung IP namin is making milk soap. tinulungan kami ng mama ko, so sana maging ok na, kase yung first try namin last wee, palpak ehh.

nung tapos na namin gawin, nag soundtrip muna kame, nagpapatugtog ako ng mga SENTI SONGS dedicated to tep. torn between two lovers kase ang drama niya now. ganito kase yun, si FIRST GUY AND SECOND GUY at SIYA. si first guy, matagal na siyang crush ni tep, first day of school pa.. kaso before,may iba pang gusto si first guy, kaya hanggang friends lang sila ni tep, so ayun, bigla dumating si second guy.. umamin kay tep, nanligaw, naging sila.. SILA NGAYON. tapos bigla eeksena nanaman tong si first guy, para guluhin si tep at amining may gusto ito sakanya.. si tep naman, sabi samen, naguguluhan daw siya kase mas masaya at mas gusto niya si first guy. its so kaloka. kawawa naman itong friendship ko, pero advice ko naman sakanya “follow your heart, whoever you chose, whatever you decide, di pwedeng walang masaktan.. kaya kung makakasakit at masasaktan ka na lang din, piliin mo na yung gusto talaga ng puso mo, yung ika nga e worth the pain” .. sounds cheesy, BUT TRUE. right?

haba na ata ng post ko?? feeling ko.. haba na. kaya tama na. haha. SWEETNIGHT CHUMS!

avoiding something doesnt always mean that you hate it.. it could also mean that you WANT IT, but you just know that it isnt right ..

 

 – this is for TEP. haha. i break mo na kase! haha. joke XD

when you ignore someone, it could only mean TWO THINGS, either you hate that person so much or you are too scared to fall in love with that person..

 – eto naman para saken BEFORE. nung crushy crush ko pa si GM. nung crush ko pa kase siya, lagi ko din siyang nahuhuling nakatingin saken, yung pag titingnan ko na siya, nakatingin na siya! eee. i remember those stares. i used to have butterflies in my stomach everytime that happens. pero, at that time, parang iniiwasan niya din ako.. so para sakanya talaga tong quote na to. i used to ask myself.. “does he HATE ME that much??? kaya niya ako iniiwasan?”.. and if its the SECOND REASON.. will it make a difference?? guess not.

pero sabi nga nila, past is soooo past. so wala na yun. and besides, may gf pala yun. more than a year na ata sila. PERO, last question, why is he still staring????? arghh.

LIFE IS FULL OF COMPLICATIONS. misunderstandings. and pain.

— i really need to end this post now, because my kitty cat is sleeping on my other arm. so i cant type fast. oh and yeah, my cat’s name is KIMI. he doesnt have a breed. puscal ika nga haha. napulot lang kse nung kuya ko, naawa kaya inuwi niya. ahe. but he’s very kawaii. he’s all white. with a little black on his head. so cuteeeee XD

okidoki, gtg KISS!

chromosomes :D

 C H R O M O S O M E S ! ! !

helo helo. i decided to upload photos tonight because i want to introduce my bffs in college.

FIRST PICTURE - from right, JUSTIN.. the malanding pokpok lol. i met him last year. we were 4th year hs classmates. 

and now, were mates again, so we became more close. our chatnick is PANGGA. ove him, een though he’s very insensitive and madaldal! haha.

middle, TEP. we met when we were in 2nd year hs. she’s so far my longest friend that until now, is close with me. she’s my very best friend actually. kabisado ko na siya. at kabisado niya din ako. magkapareho na kami ng utak eh. that’s why we click together. she’s like a sister i never had. love her soooo mush. 

she calls me MOM, i call her DAUGHTER. we’re family.

left.. nothing to say. thats just ME .. Ü

SECOND PICTURE - nadagdag lang si ATE ROSAS, yung from left, ung ikalawa na katabi ko Ü . schoolmates kame nung highschool, pero di kami magkakilala, by face lang. but now, were mates in college, so we became close. super

i call her ate because she’s very mature when it comes to serious life matters, but she can be very shallow and childish on lots of things.. that’s why i lover her a lot too. our chatnick is LOVE. 

I LOVE THEM ALL A LOT Ü

the THIRD PICTURE - thats our tambayan. yung likod ng building namen. yung parang secret place siya kase dadaan kapa kay kuya ray na nagpophotocopy bago makapunta dun.  its very cute there. yung upuan e parang dragon. basta cute. promise

LAST PICTURE -SHHHHH! sa men’s room yan hehe. engineering kase course namen, so mostly boys ang students. kaya nga pati building namen, puno ng men’s room. konti lang ang sa girls.e yung sa malapit sa room namen is men’s room, kaya dun nalang kame palaging nakiki salamin. kaya nga ayun nag picture kame for remembrance

nung isang araw nga, tuloy tuloy kami ni tep sa pagpasok sa men’s room, di namin alam may tao pala na nag wiwiwi. kaya ayun, nagulat talaga kame, tapos tawa kami ng tawa. sabi naman ni justin, di naman daw galit ung lalake, natawa pa daw siya kase na shock kami ng bonggang bongga.

o siya. oras na pala. di pa ko nakareview sa NSTP midterm namin tomorrow. 

tinatamad kase ako ehh. tapos di ko pa din nagawa yung reaction paper ko.. 

at tsaka di pa pala ako nakapag report sa phil history kanina! sayang. di pako nakaraos.

may kinatatakutan pa tuloy ako sa tuesday! grrrr. 

o siyaa.. NIGHT NA NGA! sweetsleep

am sick and tired of being sick and tired

GAGA

grrr. never thought na hanggang college may reporting. kala ko date iiwan ko na yun sa highschool. >,<

puyat mode tuloy ako tonight because i am going to report tomorrow in our phil. history subject. (sucker!)

ginagawa ko ang written report ko and visuals for my report. kapagod. di nako sanay gumawa ng ka echusan na ganto. hehe.

tska mahiyain akong tao eh, di ako sanay talaga sa reporting. tskk tskk.

bahala na nga si spongebob bukas

THURSDAY pala today. so P.E DAY. kapagod. kahit na mga basic excercise palang. ka haggard na na. mga push ups, sit ups, jumping rope, one leg balance and all that. so so soooooooo tiring. 

napipilitan tuloy akong umuwi after p.e para maligo, tapos babalik nanaman, sayang pamasahe! tska sayang energy tsk. 

kanina ngang pag uwi ko after PE, kasalukuyan kong naglalakad ng may tumigil na can sa side ko, ther’s a man who’s asking me for directions, taga apalit daw kase siya, at kanina pa paikot ikot sa lugar namen, so i said to him where he have to go, base on what he told me, tas sabi niya “pwede mo ba ko samahan, para mabilis? kanina pa kasi talaga ako dito eh”..

and me, being so NICE and naively stupid, sumama naman ako! pero swear pagkasakay ko ng van niya, dun ko lang na realize kagagahan ko.. pero thank God, nakauwi naman ako ng safe, he’s a nice old man who has a special child sister. kwento siya ng buhay nya saken habang hinahanap pupuntahan niya. ako naman, smile at opo lang ang respond. pero INSIDE, nag papanic na talaga ako. na pano kung killer to? pano nako??? JOSKO! JOSKO! lord, help me. tanga tanga ko talaga.. grrrr.

pero eto nakuwi naman ako at buhay na buhay pa, and sabi nga nung friend ko, atleast i have a LESSOn learned. tapos sinbihan ako ng gaga ko kase talaga. lol. di ko naman siya masisisis, tama nga naman siya. ang gaga ko. haha.

later in the EVENING. last subject, tagal dumating ng prof namin, so nagkwentuhan kaming girls ng R 131. (konti lang kaming girls eh. engineering kase ) ..

napagpasyahan naming mag chikahan at mag open forum. nagsabihan kame ng secreto, and likes and first impressions. FUNNY. laging masunget at maarte and sinasabi saken, e ang bait ko naman.pag tulog. haha joke. 

tapos nagkwentuhan na kame about sa buhay buhay namin, nagkwento ako ng nakakatakot na nanggyari saken, dito sa family ko, nung highschool ako, tapos kinwento ko SIYA. tapos, nag truth or dare kame. pero dahil wala na yung mga classmate namen, kase wala na talaga di na dumating si prof DG. puro TRUTHS na lang. hehe.

unang paikot ng ballpen, kay TEP. at syempre dahil ako ang longest friend ni tep, ako nagtanong, “napatawad mo na ba si first bf sa ginawa niya sayo??” sagot naman niya, “sino yun? haha. ou naman.”. first bf kase ni tep ay si mr. z na niloko siya, di alam ni tep na nung sila pala ay may gf ding iba itong lokong mr. z na to. pero well, past is past

second spin, AKO. tanong naman ni tep, “kelan mo sasagutin si SPVM??” , gaga talaga yun, ibuking ba ang love life ko, haha. “diba nga sabi ko next month pa.. adik” “whooo. pakipot kapa! dun din pupuna yun!” gaga talaga yun. diba niya alam dalagang pilipina ako? haha.

next spin,si paula na. tanong sakanya, “sino ba talaga yung crush mo sa mga mates naten??” aba pakipot at shy type pa tong si paula, ayaw ba naman umamin, pero bandang huli inamin niya din, nagpapilit lang ng konte! haha. si ano daw crush niya.. si ano.. secret! lol

tapos si ate rosas na, “bakit ayaw mong mag bf?? except sa dahilan na bawal”.. aba showbiz ang sagot, “ayaw kong masaktan e, di ko siguro kayang i handle yun” palakpakan for that, pang drama si ate rosas! lol

last, si ica.. “bat ayaw mo pa ding mag bf??” pareho nalang tanong kay rosas, la maisip eh hehe. “kase, yung gusto ko ayaw saken,yung ayaw ko, gusto ako.. yun”

bongga lahat ng sagot nila haha. tapos ayun, nagkwentuhan pa kame ng madami pa, na hindi na pwedeng isulat dahil masyadong madami at personal

basta today or should i say TONIGHT, is a very nice night. nagiging close nakameng mga girls, (excluding doggie ) date kase medyo hinde pa eh.

NOTE: SINO BA SI DOGGIE???

yung mate naming EWAN, haha. all i can say is.. play dead you sucker!

lol 

o siya, thats pretty much it. and GOODLUCK on my report tom! 

 oh god, give me luck..

ciao! mua

wanted sweetheart :D

so happy. gawa na ang mahiwaga kong radio. so am now listening to my favorite radio station. brgy LS 97.1 ayos gyud! wanted sweetheart ang show nila every night. from 9pm-12midnight sa wanted sweetheart, may dalwang caller ang tatawag, isang guy at isang girl, tapos may DJ, which is PAPA DAN, na parang magiging cupid SLASH matchmaker nila. katawa talaga tong show nato. lalo na yung mga iba’t ibang pag iisip ng mga tao na tumatawag na talagang nagpapasaya kahit papano sa buhay ko pero syempre isa din sa dahilan si PAPA DAN. napaka cute eh. full of humor pa. super natural.  

 may caller nanaman tonight. sabe nung lalakeng caller.. “LOTTO kaba? hanngang ngayon kase umaasa ako sayo”

yun oh. bumanat ng ganun? tawa tuloy ako ng tawa, kaya napagalitan ako kase nga mag 12 na. actually i just remembered my classmate paulo from that banat e.kaya mas natawa pa ako lalo

dapat kase walang pasok today because its the coronation of Mama Mary, but since my school is such an abnormal school, we have class! fck.  but since i thought there is no class. pinaglaban ko ang akin at di ako pumasok ng class ko sa chemistry lab from 1-4pm. nanood akong sine with my cousins eh kimidora! katawa promise, kakawala ng stress haha.

so pumasok nako yung next class ko which is 4.30 pm.

pagkapasok ko, sabi ng friends ko, la daw  talaga pasok ng lab kanina. la daw si mam. HURRAH! swerte ko ah. first time kong mag absent di pa naging counted! haha.

so ayun, pumasok ako ng room tapos bigla tinawag ako ni paulo, pinaupo ako sa tabi niya tapos bumulong “bat di mo na ko nireplayan kahapon?”

sabi ko naman “nireplayan kaya kita! late nga lang ahe”

adik tong si paulo eh, lakas ng trip. at lagi ako ang nakikitang pagtripan! kung makatitig, parang hinuhubaran ka! kaya sabi ko, “loko. manyak ka paulo!” sabay tayo at punta sa upuan ko. aba e sinundan ba naman ako.. hinila niya upuan niya! e katabi ko si ate rosas nun. kaya nagkatitigan kame. tapos etong si paulo nagsimula nanaman, daming banat ang binanggit! inubos niya ata lahat ng alam niya. ako naman tawa lang ng tawa. pati si ate rosas nakikitawa din. tapos tumayo si ate rosas,  binulungan ulit ako ni paulo “anong favorite song mo?? gusto mo kantahan kita?” sabi ko naman e wag na kase anlakas na nga ng ulan tapos kakanta pa siya.. e cge parin nagkanta pa din siya ng closer you and i tska moonlight over paris.

loko yun. kakatawa. watta a flirty guy. tinatawa ko nalang. lam ko naman kaseng ma trip lang talaga itong si paulo eh. kung si GM pa yun siguro kinilig pa ako. haha. 

(NOTE: si GM ay ang aking crush sa mga classmates ko. pero FORMER crush nalang, na turn off nako eh. nag iba kase ng hairstyle, medyo pumanget tuloy. mukha niya paman din si papa piolo pascual. PROMISE )

sana talaga di nalang ako pumasok kanina. kase 7.30 pa pasok ko eh. wala lahat ng teacher ko from 1-7pm. grabe. nabaliw kami sa kakalaro ng ano ano dun kakahintay ng oras. para kaming mga elemtary hindi college students!   tapos nung last subject na, e seatmate ko si paulo, umalis ako sa upuan at tinabihan ko si ate rosas at tep. tapos tinawag ako ni paulo nung nakita niya ako, “ganyanan no! cge..” ako naman tawa lang haha

reporting kami sa last subject eh, ako na nga magrereport sa friday eh. kinabahan tuloy ako. hmp. im not really used to reporting. im not the kind of person na walang hiya when it comes to that kind of thing.tsk. pano kaya ako magrereport??? hmmm.

hay. kapagod pala magkwento ng detalyado dito sa blog. tinry ko lang naman pero nakakapagod pala talaga. haha.

HALA. nagising nanay ko. ayun. sermon. matulog na daw ako. sus. kaka online ko lang ah! 

o siya, till nxt time. GOONIGHT CHUMS! kiss

NORMAL AKO! :D

bwiset. sira na naman connection ng chat sa facebook.
YAN TULOY DI KO NA MA REP YUNG crush ko sa fb!!! ee

sira pa reader ng mmc ng phone ko.
di ko tuloy mapaprint yung documentary nmin sa nstp!!!
at di ko din ma upload mga photos ko at friends ko sa fb and fs.

sira din radio at music player ko.
di ko na tuloy mpakinggan ang idol kong si papa dan sa wanted sweetheart!
mahal na mahal ko pa man din show na yun. aww

ou na.. bat di ako mkinig sa totong radyo. e wala kaming radyo eh! eee.
HAHA nbabaliw nako..

napaka daming sira sa buhay ko ahh. nakakahalata nako haha.
nakakahalata nako na lang enta nanaman post ko ngayon! haha.

pagusapan nalang siguro natin yung KAABNORMALAN NG TAO NA NORMAL naman talaga.
(naguluhan ka??? ako din eh! haha)

KINAKAUSAP ANG SARILI

- eto lagi ko tong nararansan. sa harap ng computer pag ako mag isa. sa harap ng salamin. sa banyo. sa school (habang nag tetest o nag aactivity.. ewan ko ba bat kinakausap ko sarili ko kahit may mga tao nman sa pligid ko n pwede kong kausapin, sbrang abno nba ako?? ), sa daan habang pauwi o habang papunta. sa bahay. sa canteen. kahit saan! haha
ewan ko ba bat ang sarap kausapin ng sarili pag naguguluhan ka, nalilito, may iniisip, o may gustong malaman. ayon naman sa nabasa ko NORMAL lang to. so normal pa tayo mga self talkers!!! (nu daw??)

TUMATAWA MAG ISA

- actually ito mejo abno na nga to. pero madalas tong mangyari kapag may naalala kang nakakatawa na naikwento sayo o nangyari sayo. nakakahiya to lalo na kapag kaw lang mag isa at napapaligid ang maraming tao na di mo kilala (halimbawa sa jeep! ). aus lang sana to kung kaw lang mag isa na nasa bahay kaso kung hinde! ayun na ang kahiya hiya haha.

KUMAKANTA MAG ISA

- normal naman talaga to kung tutuusin eh. di nga lang mukhang normal sa harap ng iba na di mo kakilala lalo na kung ikaw lang mag isa tapos madaming tao. hehe. masarap kase minsan magkanta lalo na kung umuulan tapos bigla kang napa emote at na feel mong magkanta habang naglalakad o kaya e nakasakay sa jeep, di kaya kapag masaya ka kaya gusto mo pa ding magkanta ng happy sha lala..
napakanatural na kase sa mga pilipino ang salitang kantahan. music lover ata tayo talaga e!

PAGTAWAG SA NANAY/MAMA/MOMMY/INA/MUDRA PAG NATATAKOT.

- madalas ko tong gawin kase nahawa ako dun sa friend ko nung 4th year highschool. kahit ano gawin e lagi nalang nakasigaw ng “nanay”. at eto naman akong ewan na adopt ko yun. kaya nga tuwing kung ano lang e nany ako nanay.
pero normal naman to sa tao dahil pag natatakot ka o may nangyayari sayong masama ang mommy natin una natin talagang naaalala

KINAKAGAT ANG KUKO/KAMOT NG ULO

- ewan ko kung considered ba to, e wala na kase ako maisip eh. pero hinde! considered to wag kayo makelam dahil blog ko to hahaha.
madalas tong gawin pag na f - frustrate, kinakabahan, nagiisip, naguguluhan at iba pa. lalo na ako, kanina pa isip ng isip ng isusulat dito kaya, naubos na ata kuko ko. haha.
pero wag ng mag deny kase lam ko manerism din ng iba to hehe.

at ang last eh ano pa ba (pwede ring sino pa ba.. )

edi AKO!

- actually para masulat to, nagtanong tanong pako sa mga kaabnormalan ng friends ko na ginagawa nila na considered normal naman pala. eh sagot ba naman e AKO daw. kaloko yun ahhh, pero natawa naman ako sa sagot niyang yun kaya sinama ko ang aking sarili dito. (kahit parang di nman totoo! DIBA! DBA!! )
isa nga lang akong simpleng nilalang sa mundo na nabubuhay ng payapa at matiwasay. at normal talaga ako no. peksman. mamatay ka man. pacama suman duman halaman.
(diba normal na normal )

oh yun lang. la na gusto pumasok sa aking isipan eh. haha.
toodles

——- ♥♥♥ imisshim Ü