loveishate

August 25, 2009

 

im so confused. i like this guy. we met through FB. and he said he likes me too. but im

scared to go in a relationship now. i dunno if im ready..

 

whenever i see lovers now, i get mad?? or is that jeaousy?? .. its not the fact that i dont have a love life.

its just because somewhere inside me, there’s a PAIN that tells me that i could have been happy like that.

but i never had a chance. HE NEVER ALLOWED THAT CHANCE.

 

 

i still remember him.. though he’s now with somebody (my friend, specifically :( ). its ok now. theres no hurt anymore.

but im still not comfortable to talk about him. and hear my friend get excited and get so inlove with him.

i can feel that she’s not comfortable about that fact too.

 

i said this many times already.. its not HIM that really hurts me inside.

its what could have been us. thats what hurts.

 

 

im my dreams, YOU ARE MINE,

in reality… you are my dream.

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itsWEIRD

August 12, 2009

 

its weird. i feel weird. im weird.

why do i miss you??

 i’ve read something from the net last night that if you cant remove someone 

from your mind.. maybe they’re supposed to be in your heart.

now… is that bullsh*t or what?? lol :) )

 

i dont know why im writing now, since i feel so lazy and tired because my

favorite niece got hospitalized so i took care of her for the whole day. (phew)

 

i dont really know what to say now so i’ll just share to you my WISH LIST.

1. to finish my course.

2. pass the board exam.

3. have a very very very nice job!

4. get a second course in conservatory of music and arts.

5. meet HIM

6. pass my second course

7. tour around the world

8. meet clipayb in the eifel tower! :)

9. meet my prince charming lol :D

10. have my own loving family!

11. give my parents a VERY comfortable life.

12. taste all the desserts around the world!

13. TRY BUNGEE JUMPING :)

14. tour around the phillipines. :)

15. visit eira in the US of A. :)

16. shopping in paris!

17. have my own website :)

18. meet daniel radcliffe in person! (all the cast! with J.K ROWLING)

 19. have my own band (rock and rolllll)

20. have a house made of chocolates! 

 

now the next wish list is made by me and my bffs :)

1. build our DREAM SCHOOL :)

2. replace the bart mall to a hi tech dorm :)

3. own resort and restaurant.

4. own BAR.

5. be zillionaires! 

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RAIN

August 7, 2009

 

 

its been rainy lately.

i love the rain… but i hate getting wet. (i know im weird! :) )

when its raining, other people tend to feel lonely, im not one of those people.

im really happy when its raining. it makes me feel relax and for no reason, i feel like smiling.

i just love to stare at the rain and just think nothing. its very hard to be nothing.

to feel nothing. to think nothing.

and it feels great that the rain can make me feel nothing.

 

 

though sometimes, it makes me sad too… i just shrug it off and continue to being NOTHING. 

i must feel northing. 

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HEY Ü

August 5, 2009

 

hello hello. im ceedee (not my real name) ..

im new here in i.ph! hurrah! aha.

 

 

i cant really say anything now because its already late.

so chiao for now. kiss! :)  

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